(Saturday, November 18, 2017) new moon Sagittarius / tarot eight of wands – burnout
In spite of all of the male-initiated chaos in my outer world, my dream life is full of loving, supportive male partners. Why is this? Am I meant to express the warrior feminine? Or move away from male manipulators?
My dream:
I have just seated myself at a table in a large conference room with the ad agency Friends & Neighbors. Nicole and another woman are leading the meeting. They stand across from me, in front of floor-to-ceiling windows like those at the downtown office on First Avenue and Fifth Street (the old Nate’s Clothing store).
The Creative Director asks the women prior to the meeting if he can sit next to me. He tells them of his deep attraction to my soul. The women are slightly hesitant and skeptical, but give him permission.
The Director and I sit together at a table that has side partitions similar to the ones at my old high school library: boundaries for privacy and concentration. He looks a little like TJ from the agency, but his hair is blacker, fuller, wavier. His body is stronger. More fit and energetic.
He leans towards me, touching my shoulder and side body wth his side body as he makes his presentation to the group. His love feels profoundly wonderful and grounded. His physical and emotional health are gifts I have missed having in my life for many years. I have been the caregiver, without full male support. He loves me unconditionally and I feel his love grow stronger moment by moment. I briefly worry about my flawed and aging body, but then allow myself to be swept away in the joy of true love and to be healed by his sturdy, intelligent, peaceful presence.
Day notes:
Last night I received an email newsletter from Rupert Sheldrake so I watched his video with Russell Brand, and then a few by his musician son Cosmo. Cosmo’s videos are earthy and etheric at the same time. And funny. In one his brother Merlin is being lowered off of a Canadian fishing pier by a cable. He is playing a squeeze box. As he sinks into the water and tries to keep playing music, he bursts out laughing. Both young men have thick, black wavy hair.
Chris was sick, weak and upset this morning. A hard way to start the day.
Midmorning we watched a beautiful, vibrant coyote with a wintery grey coat move gracefully through our yard. I thought of Black Wolf Romeo.
Beautiful dream! Do you know there is a book about Romeo? My walking friend bought in Alaska this summer and read it. I am glad you are getting what you need in your dreams!
How interesting Romeo has another connection to YOU. I remember your story of seeing a black wolf near your property.