Safety And Beauty In Generational Numbers

(Monday, June 29, 2026) full moon Capricorn

Snowball woke me up at four a.m. during the end of a very detailed, beautiful dream. Lucid.

In the dream I am sleeping in a space that feels a like a family room in a hospital or clinic. I wake up sensing a guide I never see in the dream but who has conversations with me and is always by my side. A spirit. Not sure if it identifies with gender, but it feels feminine to me.

When I wake up in the dream I see a small infant blanket on the floor under a window. We know that a young man, Cullan, is the new father of a baby boy. My guide and I leave the building and head toward Cullan’s home.

It is dark outside, without sunshine. We walk along a street on a neighborhood parkway that is grassy and pleasant. Gardeners have sown the lawn and planted bushes along the edges. After many, many blocks the parkway shifts downhill. The flowery bushes are gone and old ones that were planted generations ago, full of woody branches, appear. A time change?

My guide and and I realize we are getting closer to Cullan’s house, a mansion created by his parents. We turn at the bottom of the park, now walking on the far side, back up the hill, arriving at the driveway where Cullan is standing. Waiting for us.

Even the drive is spectacular. It is covered in an organic, woolen carpet, not cement or brick. There is a tall white-stone arc sculpted with a heart-shaped pattern at the very top. I tell Cullan this is about love for him. In the dream I am amazed at the exquisite precision.

The huge upper-level bedroom where Cullan’s mother still lives is open and visible from the driveway where we are gathered together. This single room is larger than my waking-world Rustic Lodge house, and the ceiling is at least twenty-feet high. I walk up some stairs to inspect mama’s room of sleep and relaxation. And the second story.

The sensation of the tremendous wealth and fantastic decor of the “castle” is the main emotion of this dream, creativity inspired by love: gifts for Cullan and his son.

In the dream Cullan is a little sad, even though he is fully provided with generous, millionaire income and an expansive family home with astonishing art and architecture. No risk of poverty. Am I not his mother in this dream? Just a guide? I do wonder if this has a past-life element.

Day notes:

A construction manager from Castle Building & Remodeling is coming this week to give us an estimate for the basement.

The giant house feels a lot like the enormous mansions at Lake of the Isles, where I often bike.

Today is the Capricorn full moon, and Cullan is a Capricorn.

A vibe of the bedroom reminds me of my childhood friend Nicki’s parents’ house, designed by a gifted architect and filled with gorgeous furniture that her aunt, who was a nun, found all over the world in her travels.

Precognition: Dr. Cayce

(Tuesday, June 23, 2026) waxing gibbous moon LIbra

Yesterday I met with my new Mayo neurologist for more than an hour. I have been waiting five months to see a doctor for my PPA, and waiting more than a year to find a process that matches Edgar Cayce’s electrical healing “prescription” from his readings. It all came together perfectly. I told Dr. Botha that I found out about Dr. Lundstrom’s Transcranial Direct Current Stimulation (tDCS) training during a Mayo dementia-patient Zoom session. He said they have already had conversations together about signing me up. My former eighty-year-old neurologist refused to allow me to use the tDCS electrical device, but young Dr. Botha supports it completely. He says it is still an experiment, a study. They are unsure if the power needs to connect to the damaged part of the brain or to areas of the brain that may create new neurological pathways.

On my way to Rochester I was feeling that my Summer Solstice dream was about Edgar Cayce. I incubated him the evening prior to the Solstice. Now I truly believe he visited me during “My Left Foot And My Right Hand.” Dr. Botha even looks a little bit like Cayce: a pleasant man with a round face and glasses. During our Monday discussion I handed him white paper from my right hand, as I did in the dream.

I told Dr. Botha about my participation in the Northwestern PPA research. He knows a great deal about it. The right decision to join, I feel. I mentioned that there is a patient who has worked with the Chicago study for 19 years, and he says because I am still at “mild” after my decline began seven years ago, I have the slowest version of semantic dementia. The Mayo calls my affliction “Primary Progressive Apraxia of Speech” (PPAOS).

As I was walking today to the post office, I texted my sisters about my Mayo visit. On my way home, this graffiti showed up on a building along Nicollet Avenue. In the morning when I was biking along Nokomis, the Mayo Clinic called about uploading the Northwestern PET brain images to my portal.

My Left Foot And My Right Hand

(Sunday, Summer Solstice, 2026) first quarter moon Virgo

I am in a pleasant forest location. It feels like “daytime,” yet the sky is completely black. It is cosmos-dark. The universe rotates gently above us.

There is a small circle of grass in the middle of some trees. I am standing there with a man who is constructing a shoe on my left foot. The process feels like Legos. He connects piece after piece. Click, click. I don’t expect this to work, but in the end he is able to complete my lovely shoe with a pointed toe and laces. It pleases me.

I have a conversation with a mystic, a psychic. It could be the man who made my shoe, or someone else. Edgar Cayce? I tell him in my youth I was highly intuitive, precognitive. I have a small, square piece of art paper between my right fingers. I say that I turned my skill over to my son when he was born. I hand the spirit guide the piece of white paper.

Day notes:

I will be at the Mayo tomorrow to meet a new neurologist. I am hoping he can approve my wish to learn the electrical process that I have been waiting months to begin (via Edgar Cayce). Maybe the shoe on my left foot is about my left temporal lobe? It doesn’t look great on the MRI images from Northwestern.

Intuitively I bought Wyn a Harry Potter Lego birthday present. I intended to get a Star Wars Lego set, but this was the right choice. Yesterday at his birthday party Wyn had a Harry Potter birthday cake and Hillary’s new partner was wearing a magician costume from Harry Potter. Cullan bought two Harry Potter presents too.

Chiron, “The Wounded Healer,” entered Taurus on our wedding anniversary, June 19. I have a stellium in Taurus, including the Sun, Venus, Mercury and the South Node. Chiron will be in Taurus for a few years, until 2033.

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