Synchronicity: Last Breath

(Sunday, June 7, 2026)

I attended my neighbor Vicky’s memorial in the early afternoon on June 6. Vicky had died of a mysterious pneumonia. My father died last night, on June 6. His cause of death was the decline of his lungs, aggravated by severe COPD.

I drove up to Cambridge Hospital on Friday, as soon as I heard about my father’s fall and his broken femur. I don’t always rush up to visit my parents when they are hospitalized, but I had an instinct that this could be the last time I would see him alive. Which it was.

Yesterday morning I biked with Cullan to watch Wyn’s first soccer practice. As I was sitting on the grass at Diamond Lake Pearl Park, I heard one of the coaches ask his team mates to share their names. One boy said “Edwin,” a name I had not heard in years. My grandfather’s name is Edwin Luther, and my father’s name is James Edwin Luther. I wondered about that synchronicity, if something serious would soon happen with my dad.

The orthopedic at Mercy Hospital decided not to do surgery on a 92-year-old patient, so a social worker found a rehab center where the plan was for my father to do weeks of physical therapy. Dad was going to move to rehab on Monday. He remained relatively alert, reacting positively to the pain meds, but on Saturday evening everything started to fall apart. He threw up, and the nurses used a tube to clear his throat. They did an x-ray to assure that his lungs were clear. They were. But his stomach began to bloat dramatically. Fluid probably pored into his lungs. He died very quickly, a few minutes before I arrived back at the hospital.

When I entered room 5630, everyone was sobbing, except me and our mother. My father’s blue eyes were wide open. His mouth too. After everyone left, I kissed his forehead and gave him a prayer.

Ending Fragment: Shared Movement

(Friday, June 5, 2026) waxing gibbous moon Aquarius

This is a long dream taking place outdoors and indoors. I am working, but I don’t remember what my tasks are in this dream. At the end, I have a marketing-designed box (my old job!) that I am carrying in my arms. The main cardboard color is red. The images of people are Rosin Movement participants (a class I took a few times at Lake Hiawatha). A woman who had a writing contract at my former job shows up, and she has a Rosin box too. In waking life she used to take yoga just down the street from my house, at Up Yoga. In this dream, she tells me she has been taking the Rosin class for a long time, although she has not showed up in any of the classes I attended in my dream memory. I am surprised, pleased, we have shared the same experience.

Day notes:

Rosin: a resin derived from pine trees or other conifers. Dancers use rosin powder on ballet slippers.

Red, read (former coworker is a writer)

Yesterday I started drawing the faces I need for the clay illustration project for my book. I finished the first one, my aunt Mary, and I got a call that my father had fallen again. I drove up to the Cambridge Hospital ER, and then to Mercy Hospital ER. He is waiting today to have surgery because he broke his left femur next to a hip he had replaced years ago. When I was driving to Mercy, his ambulance pulled in front of me on highway 65, and I followed them the entire way to the second hospital. Shared movement.

At the end of the day yesterday, my sister Jamie repeated the conversation to me that she had with our father a while ago. He had said our mother was a good mother and Jamie gave him plenty of reasons that they were both very bad parents. Truthful, but those reminders make me exhausted today.

Box: containment, boxing: fighting

Synchronicity: Flying

(Wednesday, June 3, 2026)

Bonnie has a recent post of a dream where I fly through the air (with her friend Renee’s mother). One of my favorite times in downtown Chicago was an evening shopping with Cullan. We went to a Harry Potter store and bought Wyn a magic wand. This picture is of me that same night “flying” with either angel wings or faerie wings.

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