I am riding a brown, chestnut horse. I wear a coat and a wide brimstone hat. A man has asked me to marry him. I am younger. There is something to do with having enough food to eat.
(middle of the night and I don’t remember this ).This sounds like a past life to me.
I am at a college. I am to give a talk to a large audience. I am the third speaker. I am on stage, but off on the side. I think my two papers (notes) are on the floor close to the podium where the one speaker is talking. I crawl over and look. They are not there.
I go to look for the papers. I am with two women. I think one of them is Sheila La Corre. We go to my classroom. I look for the notes on my computer. For some reason, I did not save them. There is a package in the room. I open it. There is a wrapped gift from a friend. (I can’t remember what it is when I wake).
I am disappointed that I cannot find my notes. I decide to call and say I need to cancel. Then I get a message from the university that something happened and it had to close. I am somewhat relieved, but also nervous that something “bad” may have happened to have it close.
I worked on this dream by just looking at the verbs. This dream could be about me asking Kevin about having connection with Markus and Rowan. I did send a voice note this morning and at the end asked where he was at re Paul and I reconnecting with the boys. No message back yet.
Ideas:
Give a talk, is talking- communication. Someone else is talking, not me. Crawl- moving on hands and knees, making myself small, unseen. Leave- go away
Look- using my eyes to see something
Did not save- did not keep, lost, didn’t hold on to
See- become aware of
Open- discover
cannot find- something is lost, not available
call- communicate
cancel-stop something, not going forward with something
closed- something has stopped, not longer available
think-thoughts in my mind
I think this dream has to do with wanting to communicate with my son about having contact with his sons. I am being passive about this. (I watch two others give their talks). I lose my notes. I don’t know how to approach him about this. I think by making myself small, meek (crawling) this will help me communicate with him better. That doesn’t work. I am trying out ways to approach my son and the old way is not going to work (can’t find my notes and did not save them on the computer). There is a gift involved, but I do not know what it is (can’t remember the gift in the dream). I call to cancel my talk. I am giving up on how to approach Kevin, what to say. Then I find out the whole University closed. University could related to higher learning. Maybe, I am missing out on higher learning by not communicating with Kevin about getting reconnected to my grandsons.
I am with Peter and a large group of leaders. It is like a dream conference. Someone tells a dream. I start to ask questions. Peter says he needs to talk to me. He leads me back into a room. It is down a hallway and through a couple of rooms. He tells me that I take over and that it has to stop. I am hurt and angry. We end up both sleeping in the same bed. I wake up and go to the bathroom. The toilet is in a separate room/space. I hear Peter get up and I tell him I am on the toilet. I think he still peeks in. (I think I am being asked to leave the group. ) (I am noticing that I am having a lot of “toilet” dreams)
Paul and I are to put in a new toilet in Kelsi and Keenan’s in the bathroom in their basement. Paul doesn’t want me to help because I do “take over”. He has lost a lot of problem solving/following directions ability. He put our toilets in at our townhouse in AZ. But I am noticing every day how he can’t figure out something.
p.s. We asked Paul’s nephew who is a retired plumber to put the toilet in and he did. Yeah!
