(Saturday, April 15, 2023) waning crescent moon Aquarius / tarot Hanged Man
My sister Jo is with me in this dream. She is a year younger than I am. She retired last year, a year earlier than my forced retirement in January.
The atmosphere of the dream is dark, nighttime. We wander around together, in and out of bland buildings. Perhaps they are office buildings that deservingly lack my attention.
I cry early on in the dream, my guess is from losing my old job. When my tears are done shedding, Jo and I walk together for quite a long time. We reach a large building and are joined by a young boy child, nearly infant age. A toddler. We find him in a room that mirrors our childhood bedroom. He has been expecting us.
I know it is time to focus on the new child. Jo is very attentive and grateful for his presence, but I begin to weep again. This time I feel deep sorrow in my heart that there is no appreciation for the creativity of my former professional work of 45 years. Jo is a bit impatient with me. I understand her mild frustration, and I will let go of my sadness. I will move on.
Day notes:
I saw a photo posted on LinkedIn yesterday from a former coworker in Europe. It showed a table full of printed samples of literature I had created over the years: catalogs, brochures, flyers. That made me very sad. Management decided that anyone could replace my design skills, which absolutely is not true.
I was envious that Jo had the financial ability to retire at 64. But I met with my financial advisor this week and she said I can retire now if I am ready. That was a huge relief. I now feel less stress and pressure to find a job. Jo must be envious that I received a large severance check because it angered her that her department of over 30 years was eliminated shortly after she retired. She would have been given a large severance check too. Jo had to pay $1,500 a month in COBRA for healthcare, but I was lucky to get Medicare.
The Hanged Man tarot card expresses this dream very clearly.