I am with Renee and Alg. They are going to church together. Before they go this time, I learn about a very large head of lettuce. Alg tells me to stick it in water. That will keep it healthy so that it can produce water.
8/26/24 A Cheerleader Refusing to do Flips
I am a cheerleader who refuses to do flips on the field. Later, a man kidnaps me. At dusk, I escape and run away really fast . (visceral feeling of running fast) Now it is night time. I sneak back into the man’s house. I go into the bathroom and lock the door. I sleep in the tub. His house is out in the country, so I could not run anywhere. I think He won’t suspect I am in his house.
8/17/24 Protecting the Two Babies
I am in a small, white house. There are two, small bedrooms. In each bedroom is a baby, sleeping. I am to take photos of the babies.
I go outside and see three bad guys. I then go inside and lock the two bedroom doors. Then the bad guys are in the house, in the living room. Paul is with me now. The bad guys ask if I have a diamond ring. I do and give it to them. Paul is in agreement. ( It is the engagement and wedding ring from Paul. I had lost the diamond when we were moving from Maple Grove and have never replaced it. ) Then they see the two cameras on the floor and they take these. They then leave.
The last scene is where I am driving on the freeway. I feel relieved that the babies are safe.
Day Notes: Paul and I were in the cities. We stayed at Rob and Sheila’s. We had lunch with Kelsi, Keenan, Freya and Keenan’s brother, Dalton. Near the end of the visit, I asked to hold Freya. I brought her over to some flowers and talked about the colors and the bees. However, she started to cry. I felt guilty that I did that. I had just read how at her age, she is afraid of strangers. I gave her back to Keenan and said to Kelsi and Keenan that I should have just held her at the table so she could still see them.
Giving away precious things to protect the babies maybe shows how much I care about being the best grandma to Freya.
I worked this dream with Shaney and Kathleen on Friday. Some ideas that came up were that I got triggered on Saturday when Freya freaked out. With Kevin and Antonia I was cut off from Rowan and Markus (as well as them) for really no reason. This could have triggered a fear that Freya would be taken away as well. Also the two babies could represent my inner babies-my innocence, sensitivity. I gave precious things away, but not that part of myself. The parents are not around in this dream. I wonder if “the bad men” show up when I do not feel protected. . The bad guys are at first outside and then inside. To me this means I have internalized them. Paul, in the dream, and the picture, has my back and does not take me giving the diamond ring away, personally. He also realizes protecting the babies is the most important thing. The cameras could be symbols of memory. Or maybe continued memory. My last photos of Rowan and Markus are a few from when they were at my sister, Sheila’s, house. This is sad to me. I loved getting photos of them for my Skylight and the refrigerator
