Author: bonniemitsch

1. I am scuba diving at an old shop wreck. A man is also scuba diving. He has a new wife. I am curious and ask the questions like where did you meet, etc.?
2. There is a young guy on a motorcycle and a young woman who keep meeting on a street. He has made this wooden doll/character. It is made our of wood. It is yellow and has parts that move. Later, the doll turns into hippie like pants like Margie’s with the same pink, flower pattern as hers. I start to try them on. The young motorcycle guy is there and says I am putting them on backwards.

Day Notes: The most difficult day emotionally. I wasn’t very nice to Paul. I did a grief meditation and felt better. I was feeling a bit guilty about letting Kevin have it and worried it made him feel justified to cut us off. On the other hand, I felt it has been a long 15 years and I have to forgive myself for not being calm and collected.

I am at home with Paul. I keep bossing him around. I tell him I will work at not doing this. We go in a car and get gas from a pump in the yard of Julie Ann and Mike. Paul adds dirt afterward. Paul is going to stay overnight at his friends’s house. I think that would be an intrusion because they are going out of town the next morning. Paul is going to stay anyway.

There is a young woman who is excited about going to Australia to make a pickle ball court. I tell her it will be winter there so the weather will not be too different than where we are. I get photos from Sheila Le Corre with notes typed on them. They are old photos. I find out she is sending them to all the birthday goddesses.

I get in the car and drive home. Paul stays with his friend.

Day Notes: Sad and crying. Looking for therapist.

I am looking for a snake. I look outside around a rectangular field. It is evening. I walk along the edge. Someone reminds me to look inside the corners, like a basement. I need to have the snake bite me for a cure.

Daynotes: I am very sad and crying a lot. Kevin cut us off a couple of days ago. I ask for a dream that will solve the situation where we can have contact with Rowan and Markus.

I worked this dream with Kathleen and Shaney. I went back into the dream and walked on the edge of the field on the left hand side. There wasn’t a snake in the upper left hand corner. I walk to the right. In the upper right hand corner is a brown, medium sized snake. He is calm and it seems like he is waiting for me. I wonder if he needs to bite me on my bare foot or my hand. I decide it is the hand. I reach my right hand down in front of his mouth. He bites me on the side of my hand and leaves two pink marks. It is somewhat painful but not bad. I stand up and feel I can breathe so much better. I then go out into the middle of the field. I have a skirt and shawl on now and a twirl arounds feeling free. I then imagine a shield around Rowan and Markus. I say to them that I am sorry this is happening. It has nothing to do with them. I miss them and love them. I then light candles for Kevin, Antonia and the boys.

The discussion had to do with letting the toxicity of the situation with Kevin and Antonia out of my body,