Author: Denise

(Friday, August 25, 2017) moon waxing crescent Virgo / tarot Devil reversed

The wildest, most psychedelic dream. Under the influence of psilocybin or ayahuasca, or so it seems! Normally dreams slip away as we move from sleep to awakening, but this one eludes because of its lack of logic. Because it is so exotic I can barely grasp the plot and flow of events. I may have much of it wrong.

It begins with an encounter with a master being that is alien or multidimensional. It has the soul or energy of an owl with universal intelligence and connection to many levels of consciousness. I too carry some of these owl genetics and spirit. But I am modestly human in comparison.

The Owl Master Soul hands me an egg the size of a pineapple. I am unsure if it is an animal egg or the seed of a plant. I carry it gently in my arms until I find an open wooden crate where I feel it will be protected, and I place it inside, covering it with soft grasses. My sister (Bonnie or Jo?) has placed another egg in a wooden crate next to mine.

After allowing time for gestation, I return to the nested egg. My expectations for the survival of the pod are very low, so what I discover is shocking. A true paradigm shift.

The egg has doubled in size. It has developed whispy feelers, nerves, that fill the crate like spider webs. Cocoon. The nucleus of the egg glows with a pulsing light and begins to speak to me! It has a cosmic intelligence that my human mind can barely fathom.

It is time for me to learn from this cosmic consciousness. I am overwhelmed, and humbled. More than a little frightened.

(Thursday, August 21, 2017, Chris’ 62nd birthday) moon waxing crescent Libra / tarot nine of cups, Kuan Yin

I am at a large conference where Jill Purce is holding a workshop. Hundreds of people fill many rooms.

In part of the dream I discuss a famous female artist at a round table with another woman, maybe Karen from Glastonbury. The artist’s name is on the tip of my tongue but I cannot remember it. I say that I will need to go online to find her name. I have great passion for her art. It has inspired me for many years. I am surprised at my forgetfulness. My empty mind.

In a second scene I sit across a round table from Jill. The room is populated, for the most part, by beautiful, highly spiritual women. But there are also egotistical older men from the IASD.

Jill has created an exercise based on the content each participant experienced at the Tantric Red Tara mandala ceremony. She hands me a small piece of manilla paper with writing on it that I am supposed to read back to her. The text is short, a title followed by a paragraph of just a few sentences. I read the headline but am distracted by ruckus in the room. The men are being disruptive and disrespectful. Cynical. I lose the paper I am reading from. I shuffle through a handful of other papers. My panic keeps me from finding the page that I need. I keep looking at Jill, thinking she will step in to help. But that is not how Jill lives or teaches. She silently waits for me to return to my own sense of order and calm.

Day notes:

Yesterday I received an email from a “cyber shamana” named Lorna Liana about the Transpersonal Conference in Prague. The theme is “Beyond Materialism – – Toward Wholeness.” Stan Grof is teaching a worshop and so is Jill Purce! I bought a CD from Jill in Glastonbury that I had not even opened yet. It is a recording of her presenting at the Transpersonal Conference in Prague 25 years ago. So now I am listening to her CD. Her voice makes my heart so full it almost brings me to tears.

Perhaps the artist in this dream is Kiki Smith. Bonnie and I chatted online a little about Kiki.

Unbelievable! I just went to the Transpersonal Conference website and Melinda Powell, formerly Mary Ziemer, is presenting on lucid dreams!

http://www.itcprague2017.org/speakers/melinda-powell

(Friday, August 18, 2017)

I went to see Marlene for a tarot reading. I asked her a lot of work-related questions but I also brought up my recurring dream “Regaining Ownership of my Ancestral Home.”

Immediately she thought of Red Riding Hood. That was an “aha” moment for me. In the dream I travel to my grandmother’s farm along the good red road, and in my first black wolf dream he appears as I am walking near the red road on my grandmother’s land. The same location. I do believe these dreams are connected.

My interpretation of the “Ownership” dream is the opening of my heart chakra and Marlene agreed. She sees that I am at a point in my life where both family and ancestors finally embrace me for who I truly am. Love. Like the love the black wolf Romeo and I share for each other. Personal power. I “met” the black wolf at the Glastonbury Red Tara mandala ceremony. Red Tara is Kali. Marlene and I both honor Kali. She told me about a room at the Louvre she visited that is filled with sculptures of Kali.

For many years I have owned and cherished a book about my favorite artist Kiki Smith’s Red Riding Hood sculptures and drawings. I was fortunate to see her exhibit at the old Walker Art Center. I now feel a need to research this fairy tale’s Jungian aspects. Maybe reread “Women Who Run With The Wolves” by Clarissa Pinkola Estes.

Kiki’s drawing “Lying With The Wolf”:

https://www.khanacademy.org/humanities/ap-art-history/global-contemporary/a/kiki-smith-lying-with-the-wolf

The mundane aspect of this dream is important too. I told Marlene I am worried about the economy crashing and that I have been thinking of moving a big chunk of money out of mutual funds. The cards agreed with my concern. I wonder if this recurring dream is directing me to buy some land.