Author: Denise

I have long dreams all night but this scene at the very end, before I awaken, stands out:

The sensation is that of my childhood. The room I am in feels like the south corner of the family living room, near the door connected to the side entry and kitchen. The tones look like those viewed on an early color television. Slightly muted, a bit pink in hue.

Two old wooden televisions are set against the 60s-era beige wall. They are identical, the same model, pushed closely together like a pair of eyes. I scribble acronyms with crayons onto each screen, duplicating on the right TV what I scribe onto the left TV: UFO, ET, etc. I wipe some letters off, and then replace them with different combinations. UFO is the last set of letters I remember writing before I wake up.

Day notes:

The first thing that came to my waking mind was the word “channel.” I am going to attend a channeling session at Carondolet next Saturday by a friend of Eric C. named Kelly Thebo. She channels a group of aliens called “The Collective.” I will ask them about my childhood dreams and experiences with ETs.

Minnetonka Animal Hospital is advising that I take Lola to Blue Pearl for neurology and ophthalmic exams. She needs an MRI, perhaps to diagnose cancer. This made me really think about the little shutterings I have been noticing in her face. I have found videos of identical tremors on Google and they are of cats experiencing focal seizures. So I took a video of Lola’s twitching face.

Last fall I saw her shaking quite violently as she slept. I “saw” smoke waft from her body. I called it one of my waking dream. At the time I wondered if it was her aura but now I remember Chris’ first temporal lobe grand mal seizure. He woke up with an overwhelming sense of smell of something burning. An hour later, he fell into a seizure at Regions (that caused his heart to stop) and was diagnosed with a brain tumor. Temporal lobe seizures are also called focal seizures.

In a nightime dream I had in December I was able to heal her dilated pupil.

(Holy Fool’s Day 2018) full moon Libra / tarot nine of pentacles

It’s Easter, Passover and April 1.

I sent Dr. Lucas an email last month about my statue dreams. They reminded me of her “past life container” dreams. Here is what she replied:

“The statue dreams you are dreaming about are archetypal representations of the past life overview process. So apparently, you too are at the end of your reincarnation cycle. Congratulations!”

I certainly do not feel as enlightened as the Buddha! But I do cherish the dream of my bodhisattva partner that I had last fall. The most powerful dream of my life, I think.

Bodhisattva: the Sanskrit term for anyone who has generated bodhicitta, a spontaneous wish and compassionate mind to attain Buddhahood for the benefit of all sentient beings. A divine being worthy of nirvana who remains on the human plane to aid the salvation of others.

Sabine recently posted the full “A Row of Tombs” video on YouTube, in order to preserve it for posterity.