(Sunday, April 14, 2024, Bonnie’s birthday) first quarter moon Cancer / tarot five of pentacles “out in the cold”
There are four scenes in this dream and the order may not be 100% correct.
I am standing in line with a few dozen people, my sister Jo included. She is ahead of me by three or four. We are waiting for labs and doctor visits. Someone asks me, I think a friend (not Jo), “Do you have cancer?” I say, “I have a 70% chance of cancer.”
In another scene Jo and I agree to travel to a restaurant named after a chef, maybe “Dave’s” or “Mark’s” or another common male name. She leads and we end up at a restaurant that is at the opposite side of town I expected. The chef must have businesses on each end of the village. We sit down and have a nice meal together.
In a third scene, kitty Snowball wants to leave the house and head outside. I am too worried about my absence so I have to seal up a small gap in the basement wall that he is trying to squeeze through. I use some clear plastic and some stones. He does escape before I finish. I grab him by the belly and put him back inside.
Certainly this is the final scene: I am instructed by lab or healthcare workers to lie on my stomach and focus on deep breathing. Over time, I need to position myself in four spots on the ground, all right next to each other. It’s like there is a cross between them. Two spots are at the top, right and left. Two spots are beneath, right and left.
Day notes:
This is clearly a dream about my health, my upcoming diagnosis. I don’t have much clarity about this dream yet. I know that Cullan and Hillary have started shopping for a new house and that gives me anxiety. Should I tell them now, prior to my diagnosis? Or wait? It could potentially be hardship for me if they move back out to Deephaven or Minnetonka. I worry I won’t be able to care for Chris or myself at some point in the future.
Deep breathing reminds me of my below-normal C02 lab result.
A good meal might symbolize the B12, E and thyroid meds that have been added to my diet by the neurology clinic. Two books on dementia I got from the library have a lot of information about a cognition-helpful diet.
Two hard-working men just finished removing all of the old popcorn from our ceilings. The house was full of clear plastic for days. Obviously, Snowball was very stressed out and he hid most of the time.
I spent Friday with my parents and my brother. It was really great to see him and to have a long chat. I was sad to see he is still smoking, because smoking can be one of the main causes of his particular cancer. But I do understand his level of stress.