Break-In – TheDreamstersUnion

(Monday, October 28, 2013) I awake with a trinity of precious, vivid dreams this morning, still fresh in my mind (Break-in, Chalet and Cloister dreams).

Two of the dreams are about moving into the inner city. In one dream, I have just finished unpacking in my new apartment and have fallen asleep on a large sectional sofa, facing a bank of windows that overlooks a busy street. A little bit like the windows in my old art studio at the Jax building in Lowertown. I’m completely covered by a large comforter. Even my head and face are under the blankets.

Suddenly I’m aware of a break-in. A young, mentally ill black man has found his way into my room. He’s dancing behind me in a lighthearted, vivacious style. He delicately brushes the nape of my neck (still under the covers) with his long fingers and sings out my name, “Kerry! Kerry!” I am terrified and unable to move but he disappears as quickly as he arrives.

Then a loud pounding noise coaxes me out from beneath the blankets. My landlady, a middle-aged black woman, is hammering with her fists so hard on my double entry doors that I can see her in the crease between the shaking wood panels. I unlock two circular locks, one at hip level and one at eye level, and invite her in.

She knows about the break-in and is very concerned for my safety. She hurries me out of the apartment into a cement stairwell. We look up: on the landing of the level above us is Sifu Rob and another man. Rob has captured the mentally ill young man and has already taken care of getting help for him. Rob is wearing business attire, not his T’ai-Chi garb, as is his associate. He looks at me but then turns to speak earnestly to the other caucasian man, who faces away from me. I am wearing a long, deep pink nightgown made of heavy cotton.

Day notes:

Because of the level of correction I have been receiving from Rob I have been researching other T’ai-Chi schools. This dream seems to be telling me to stay with the teacher I have. From yesterday’s reading of 365 Tao: “For a person to awaken to Tao, someone must give them a spark. Perhaps this is what is called direct transmission. It is odd, but that is the only way that knowledge of Tao is passed on.”

And: “A deviation of a hair’s breadth at the center
Leads to an error of a hundred miles at the rim.
When the effort is so slight,
Why would you hesitate to set things right?”

Ruminating on this dream while driving into the office, I think I remember that Rob wears a lavender dress shirt. Today Louis, Steve and Rick are all wearing lavender shirts.

Mary Ziemer says that pink is the color of the initiate. I wear night clothes because I am unconscious? Rob wears work clothes and is at a higher level.

One of my early memories is of visiting my grandfather at Willmar State Mental Hospital. He had shock treatments. Chris had shock treatments as a teenager.

Rob’s day job is as an economist for the Federal Reserve. He speaks around the country on the economic return of early childhood education, especially for inner city youth. My first T’ai-Chi teacher, Eddie, is from the same school as Rob. Eddie is a nurse at the HCMC psych (psyche) ward.

I remember Claudia’s dream of being nuzzled at the nape of her neck by black panthers. Black Panthers?

Inner city, inner work?

My vampire king dream also has a “bank of windows” that allows me to escape from the demonic realm. Rob is a visionary banker.

The theme of the double locks from Rolduc reappears in this dream. Hip-level lock, second (sex-creative) chakra? Eye-level lock, third eye?

Kerry \k(er)-ry\ as a girl’s name (also used as boy’s name Kerry), is pronounced KARE-ee. It is of Irish and Gaelic origin, and the meaning of Kerry is “black.” From the male name Ciaran. Also a place name for a county in Ireland.

From Nigel Hamilton, on black light, the dark night of the soul, and the third stage of the alchemical journey (Citrinitas or “Yellowing”):

Alchemists refer to Citrinitas as the stage of the sun, or the dawning of the “solar light” inherent in our Being. Now the light is no longer reflective as in the lunar or soul light. Its nature is direct and it is all pervading (we do not experience it as having a source). This light is “great and strong, as of a calcining fire.” It is sometimes referred to as the original Light or the Light that is pure, creative Intelligence. Some alchemical texts describe it as the Divine Intellect (as distinct from the human, mental intellect). It is said that the only true knowledge is revealed to us when this Light becomes conscious in us.

Now in describing the second stage, mention was made only of an alchemical marriage and a rebirth. Stage three begins with the “yellow death,” i.e. there is a dying away of the “lunar light” to the point of complete darkness, which is in fact “black light,” a light so bright we cannot see it as our inner sight is veiled and it appears as darkness. St. John of the Cross speaks of this in a personal account of his own “Dark Night of the Soul.” This “death” is also described from a Buddhist point of view as a death of the sense of self as being a separate individual. It is a complete dying of the dualistic state of mind that perceives subject and object as separate.

It is hard to find the equivalent experience in the psychotherapeutic setting, but we do have a possible example when we consider the schizophrenic experience. Here the client can lose all sense of individuality and moves into a world that is almost totally subjective and there is little or no ability to be objective, i.e. for the client to separate him/herself from the experience. The “yellow death” signals the end of the influence of the “lunar light,” as the consciousness is transformed into “solar light.” This “solar light” awakens the sense of revelation and revelatory knowledge. Inner knowing is not arrived at by study, reflection or deep thought; it is to be experienced as a direct revelation. Further descriptions of this stage become too metaphysical to be relevant and so we must proceed to the description of the third Alchemical Marriage. Purification at this stage focuses on the removal of the “watery” elements. This alchemical marriage reveals the anima figure as corresponding to the Divine Virgin, or heavenly woman, the object of spiritual love. This love is devotional in nature. One example of this would be Dante’s Beatrice, who leads the poet on to the spheres of paradise and the marvels of heavenly love. The corresponding animus figure appears as the spiritual guide – the professor, clergyman, guru, who is seen as “elevated and spiritualised.” The Rebirth is in terms of the birth of the Solar consciousness, a revelatory light.

The three main energy gates of the body in Qigong are the tailbone (Wei Lu), the middle of the spine (Jia Ji) and the base of the skull (Yu Zhen).