Category: Denise

(Monday, May 18, 2026) waxing crescent moon Gemini

Every morning I wake up sensing long dreams, but in the last few weeks they have immediately disappeared. Loss of my private bedroom is really affecting my sleep. Chris wakes me up with a snore. Snowball wakes me up between 3 and 4 every morning. Sometimes Cullan and Amanda are up and about in the middle of the night. Maybe it is my diagnosed memory loss. Sigh.

Fragment: There is a tremendously high hill, like those in Duluth or even in mountain towns. I park my car on the steep street, facing upward. I open the door and walk out for a minute. A beautiful, dark and foresty park is next to my car. People are walking along the sidewalk across the street. I look down the hill, toward the busy city. I worry about being parked on such a big climb, so I go back inside my car and drive away.

(Friday, May 15, 2026) new moon Taurus

Waking life: I was informed that the city would be working on the water system today and we could be without water from 8 am to noon. Because lunch with my former coworkers was on my Friday calendar, I took a shower at 6:30 am.

Very early this morning I dreamt about taking a shower: I planned to have one in a small bathroom, but a young woman was there, so I moved to a second, larger bathroom. The space was strewn with all kinds of furniture, equipment and decorations. This made me expect that the room had been severely neglected, that it needed cleaning. But it was pristine. Historical. I had a long, enjoyable shower.

Day notes:

I am looking at a two-bathroom, three-bedroom house tomorrow with Cullan and Amanda. It is a Mexican-style home built in 1935. Absolutely gorgeous with lots of detailed interior and exterior designs.

(Monday, May 11, 2026) waning crescent moon Pisces

Yesterday I watched a YouTube video by guys who are Bay Area twins and do tarot readings together. They were talking about a visit with their mom on Saturday (who is being cared for by their sister). Their mom is the same age as my mother: 90, almost 91. They said she had been very healthy for 90 years but now is at the end of her life. They think she will pass away before her July birthday. For some reason that was a bit of anxiety for me. Is this synchronicity for my mother?

And today I had my monthly Mayo Zoom meeting. This was about grief. A participant with Alzheimer’s said he only has two or three years left to live. He wishes he would be hit by a train. Another member, a former nurse at the VA, talked about a seminar at the U of M on VSED, Voluntary Stopping Eating and Drinking. I am for that idea, and found a book at the library to learn more about it. I do not want to end up in Memory Care or hospice with the inability to eat or breathe on my own.