Category: Denise

(Thursday, January 2, 2025: New Year Dream) moon waxing crescent Aquarius / tarot High Priestess

The dream takes place in a large environment that feels square. Many acres. The land and buildings are filled with people of high-level intelligence and advanced university degrees.

In the beginning, within the dream, I “wake up” and have a strong sensation of stimulus in my brain. Stronger memory. I sit up and “head out” on a walk. I have periodic interactions with Cullan and Hillary and others. Everyone is much younger than I am. Cullan’s thick, dark, wavy hair is noticeable to me. It matches the color of the energy in my awakened brain.

There is a tiny cabin-shaped building that I own. It has metal outer walls, like prefab homes some architects design. I enter the door because I need to pee. The toilet space is separate from the bathroom, as they are in Europe. It is so small I can barely fit in. When I finish, I look at how pleasant and spacious the room with the sink and shower is, and I think about a remodel to add the miniscule toilet. Then I move outdoors.

Throughout the dream I sleep and dream and reawaken. I am getting ready for a journey with Cullan, but I fall into a ditch that is about ten or twelve feet long, three or four feet wide and maybe five feet deep. Black earth. I lift my right leg up to the top. Cullan grabs my hands and pulls me out.

Day notes:

The square acres feel like Mayo Clinic because of the highly intelligent population (doctors and nurses and researchers). If I am accepted to the phase 1 medical trial, Cullan will need to go with me to Rochester a couple of times.

I went to my new acupuncture doctor on Tuesday. He understood my diagnosis and said treatment is slow and difficult. The WHO (World Health Organization) recognizes that acupuncture treats memory loss. He says brain function is related to kidney energy. Kidney equals pee in the dream? When he put the needles in my lower legs, the area that treats kidney energy, I yelled and kicked up my left foot. I felt a powerful wave of electrical energy in my left leg. That is supposed to mean acupuncture is working. It is out of my budget to afford so much needle-work, but I believe I need to give it a try.

(Wednesday, Christmas Day, 2024) waning crescent moon Scorpio / tarot two of pentacles

I wake up early this morning and listen to a podcast about Ayurveda and the book “The Longevity Formula.” After I fall back to sleep, I experience sleep paralysis that is different than any I have had in my life. Large, colorful human heads fly past my vision, in deep blackness. The heads are brilliant, fluorescent lights in primary colors: blue, green, yellow, orange, red. I sense my paralysis and struggle for a while to return to normal sleep.

Day notes:

I worked on this dream with Victoria’s dream circle. Here are their new titles:
Lighting Up My Darkness
Accepting My Sleep Paralysis A Different Way
The Calm Over The Rainbow
The Wisdom Of The East
Loosen The Struggle For The Flow Of Space
Brilliant And Black
Heading East
Cosmic Christmas
Dream Information Doctors Can’t See
Illumination
Head Start
Over My Head
Somewhere Over The Rainbow

My titles:
Healing Rainbows
The Peaceful Universe
Universal Light

(Wednesday, December 18, 2024) waning gibbous moon Leo / tarot Lovers

I am in a bedroom in a building that feels like the Mayo Gonda tower. It is many stories high. A male friend, not a close friend, joins me in my single bed and tries to have sex with me, even though we are both fully dressed. This makes me deeply angry. I grab at his neck with my fingers and squeeze as hard as I can. I yell. I want to give him extreme pain. At first he ignores me, but I keep on physically attacking him with my hands, which starts to cause torment. He jumps off the bed and runs down the stairs. Following him, I find a heavy metallic office chair and grab it. I want to hit him in the head as hard as I can. He escapes.

I begin to move up the flight of stairs, to multiple stories. Some levels are newly, commercially decorated, full of workers. Beautiful, impressive. Some are old, neglected and empty. I meet a tall, handsome young man two stories above the bedroom. He tells me that he heard me yelling at the attacker. Eventually I finish my exploration of the skyscraper and head down the stairs. The main floor is very much like the “castles” I have been having in recent dreams.

Now I am outdoors, meeting with another friend, a woman. I tell her about the potential rape but she is not affected by my story, even though she also knows the predator. She is focused on taking a series of photographs in nature. Her eyes are on the camera viewfinder. I feel sad, alone.

Day notes:

I am feeling very depressed about my diagnosis. Feeling attacked by it. My Friday Zoom meeting is with a tall young man, my neurologist.

Plenty of Gonda spaces are newly updated and others are waiting for remodels.

This is a vivid, lucid dream but I did not write about enough of the images/events early enough in the day. Pieces are missing.

December 21 (Solstice): In my meeting with Dr. Pounders yesterday, he mentioned that at the end of dementia, personality can change and some become aggressive about sex. Chris’ mom had that symptom.