Category: Denise

(Thursday, November 21, 2024) third quarter moon Leo / tarot five of cups

Another ghost dream last night. It starts with me lying on my back, in my bed, observing a small bird standing on a shelf, looking out the top of my arched window. I think the bird has been there for hours or even days. Because I wonder if it will bite me with its beak, this creature makes me a bit nervous. But eventually it leaves the window and disappears. I don’t know if it falls or if it flies.

My resting thoughts have been following the updates and repairs to my house. Plenty done, more to do. Then the recurring dream aspect begins: the open door to my left is connected to a huge, hidden part of the attic that is full of old furniture, old toys. I see the children from past generations. Ghosts. My big white cat, Snowball, wanders into the spirit room and is chased away by the ghost of a child’s pet. The house-ghosts in my dreams are rarely negative or aggressive but the emotion they cause is apprehension. Such a different dimension.

Day notes:

This morning I drove over to Cullan and Hillary’s to bring Oona to school. I spent about 20 minutes with my grandkids, viewing all the Christmas decorations they helped their mama put up. One was the photo of their passed-away kitty named Truck. The picture frame was surrounded by evergreens. They gave me a gift from The Museum of Russian Art, a little wooden doll for my Christmas tree.

Perhaps the bird is a ghost. Five of cups is a minor arcana card for death.

I think the upper floor of my house was always the space for children. Last year I replaced the very old wooden ceiling light in my bedroom. It was shaped like a ship wheel and felt like a toy. I donated it to Habitat for Humanity.

Window to my right, door to my left. Two openings. The outer world, the inner world.

Last night Dr. Min (PhD in Alzheimer’s research) spent two-and-a-half hours with us, his tiny group of Wisdom Ways breathing students. He brought us dinner and then showed us his recent research data using MRIs from the Mayo Clinic. It was fascinating, all about the results of deep breathing and the brain. Some contributors had learned breath techniques a few months earlier. Some had more than five years of experience and some had done thirty years of breath work. The techniques did not have to be Dr. Min’s process from Korea, Seokum-Hoheup. His charts showed how deep breathing (below the diaphragm, in the belly) created the ability of our lungs to help the brain eliminate toxins: quickening the movement of CSF (cerebrospinal fluid) from the brain down the spinal column, through the blood and eventually to the kidneys. The longer the history of breath work, the stronger the influence on CSF. I was absolutely stunned by his data.

I shared with Dr. Min (we call him Paul) my upcoming appointments at the Mayo Clinic. He asked if a certain doctor is the one I will be meeting with but I don’t have any names yet. I also told him about the neurologist who does acupuncture for Alzheimer’s. I did not know if he would blow off that healing idea but he asked me to send a link to that doctor. He was very interested. Which inspires me even more to see the acupuncturist, if I can afford it. My Medicare only pays for acupuncture for joint pain.

I have bookmarked two Vimeo videos that lead through the Seokum-Hoheup (Hang-Gong) steps. After last night, I feel this is an important procedure I need to do at least three times a week: a form of relaxation and meditation, but a body/brain benefit too.

(Monday, November 18, 2024) waxing gibbous moon Cancer / tarot seven of cups

Lately I wake up and have the memory of a long, long dream, yet most of the visual details are gone. What is left is a strong feeling in the heart and sensitivity to the alternative dimension that is dreaming. My unconscious is very conscious. I guess that is the normal dreaming process but I feel more connected to the energy than the story. Thriving in the void.

This morning I have a cloudy dream of being in the upper level of a large building, working at something. Plenty of others are also working, and we all have our individual chores. A small little sculpture or religious piece made of pine or rosemary needles falls from the front of a window onto the steep hillside far below. One of the male workers, a manager, wants me to fetch the piece, even though it is not mine and I did not drop it. I tell him I am on my way to a road, to a journey. Once outside I try to grab the fallen, breaking green needles but they are under a wooden patio and I cannot easily reach them.

I move onto the dirt road, walking towards a river bed. I have dreamt of this road, crossing an expansive grey river, many times in my life. Often it has been very precarious travel. In this dream I look ahead but the dream ends before I make any progress on the road. A symbol of death or transformation? There is an electrical, charging element of this dream, too, that just bubbled up, but I can’t really see it anymore. Maybe the fix to the power sockets/system is one of my chores. I don’t know.

Day notes:

I had a recent dream where my father allowed me to plant a field of rosemary at his old house. I thought that was a symbol of a cemetery. The river road has shown up in my dreams when family members pass away. Years ago, I remember dreaming about my grandmother Helen Luther traveling on a road or a bridge from one side of the river to “the other side.” But I also dream of the river road or river bridge when it is not related to death. A different dimension? Progression in this life?

Rosemary still surviving in my autumn garden bed

Symbolism of rosemary: Love, lust, memory and mourning are all associated with this aromatic herb. Since ancient times, the aromatic herb rosemary has been believed to improve your memory.