Fragment: Aphasia

(Labor Day, 2024)

I am hanging out with some coworkers. Nick W. is listening to my diagnosis of “probable mild cognitive decline.” He is highly skeptical of that phrase. So I say, “Well, I have aphasia, trouble remembering words.”

Day notes:

I have been attending a 10-week Zoom meeting with Brain HQ. Their neurologists provide really helpful info, especially last Friday. It is recommended to work with BrainHQ at least three times a week.

Keeping oxygen flowing into the brain is important. Hillary just gave me a fancy treadmill that her sister had given to her. I’ll try to fast-walk three times a week, for thirty minutes. It will be needed in the winter.

Driver Doreen Has Willpower

(Labor Day, 2024) new moon Virgo / tarot Fool

I am wandering inside our huge family house, exploring many stories. My mother has a task in the outer world and is ready to drive. I join her in her vehicle.

She is fully in charge. Assertive. She looks just like my mother Doreen. In the dream I have no memory of where we go, but do remember our long journey back home. As is common in many of my dreams, the environment is earthy and beautiful. Rich in native plants and trees. We start to climb up a gentle hill and make a turn to the left. We are entering our large property. I notice a fancy little wooden shed with hand-carved decorations, the kind used in the countryside years ago for children waiting for their school bus at the end of a long driveway. Protection from harsh weather.

There is a small, two-story farmhouse next to the bus-stop hut. But we keep driving and arrive at the mansion. My mother takes me on a tour of our home, from spacious room to spacious room, full of artwork. I realize I am ready to create a huge piece of art, an abstract painting. A surprise! Next she takes me to the inner courtyard. It is very large and people are enjoying being outside together. I sense my father’s spirit high above us. He feels like a stern king.

My dream parents have bought and sold many houses. The last one had narrow spaces between windows with no room for art on the walls. This gallery house means so much to me that I beg my mother to please, please keep it.

Day notes:

I am going to visit my parents on Thursday for my father’s 91st birthday. This dream tells me he is leaving soon. This might also be about their will.

“My dream parents have bought and sold many houses” might suggest their many incarnations. Or their inability to maintain a close, comfortable family much of the time.

I can see my abstract painting in the dream, even though I have not started it. Precognitive vision.

Monday, September 9: I took Wyn to his Burroughs bus stop this morning.

If this were my dream:
The ancestry on my father’s side, not my mother’s side, provided some creative DNA. My stern, passed-on father is inspecting me, giving me a silent but strong message about using the last years for the creative, which is actually my goal for 2025 – finish loving touches on my historic house in 2024 but move on to what really matters to my soul. The courtyard helps me make contact again with like-minded people. Enjoying time together, surrounded by the gallery house. Get going, be the queen.

Coming Together Again

(Saturday, August 31, 2024) waning crescent moon Leo / tarot World

In this dream, I recognize the tall, handsome dark-haired man from my Dutch dream. I look exactly like the tall, captivating dark-haired woman in that dream (we were spouses). We are both younger than I am now, perhaps in our forties.

I realize his appearance is identical to my frequent dream guide (even though the Dutch dream seemed to be about a past life).

He is emotionally, intellectually, spiritually powerful. A genius quantum physicist and much, much more: the leader among people who surround us in this dream. I feel he is pulling me toward him, to become a couple again. I think that my physical beauty is enough, a trick for him to be attracted to me. But as we come together, I understand that we are completely equal on every level.

Day notes:

This dream felt like a higher dimension. Strong sensations. Last week I felt my spirit guide touch my right shoulder in waking life. I haven’t felt that since being a teen.

The dark-haired couple remind me of my Clooney dream (and the Clooneys reminded me of the Dutch dream). The quantum physicist also reminds me of a dream I had right before I went to Glastonbury and met scientist Rupert Sheldrake.

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