(Friday, January 26, 2024) full moon Leo / tarot two of pentacles
In the middle of the night I dream about tidying a house that feels like my childhood home. Day-to-day chores, nothing inspiring. At the end of the dream I have the sense of my father passing, being on the other side.
I wake up and focus on the dream so I can record it later in the day, but then I fall back to sleep. I dream about the dream. The house feels neglected and overly simple: not enough pleasant furniture or decor. Fortunately, my memory is strongly connected to the other house that I have been dreaming about for years, the communal home full of beautiful things. It’s still my house. I decide to bring some furniture back from the communal house to the unadorned family house.
In this dream, I am in my Rustic Lodge bedroom, contemplating the decoration options. The dreams have shifted from the Fridley house to my Tangletown house. I head down the steep stairs to begin my journey to the communal, unlimited house, but I feel very dizzy. I’m afraid to walk down what Cullan calls “the death stairs.”
I re-enter the bedroom and decide to leave the physical realm. I decide to “enter the unconscious.” Suddenly my body is gone. I am part of colorful, rhythmic waves. I feel the very powerful energy. My spirit is flowing, expanding throughout this eternal, cosmic motion.
I am grateful I can make an easy transition from the physical realm to the magical realm. A lucid dream, right? But I worry: can I return to my physical body? It takes quite a while, hard work, but I make it back to my body and my bedroom. My physical being feels unloved, and is bossing around two little baby girls I create from the void. I realize I need to let them be. Perhaps I did not spend enough time in the void. Allow it to transform my mindset.
Day notes:
I have been very dizzy today, even after my three mile walk.