TheDreamstersUnion

1. There is a young, native man who walks a long way. Somehow, because of walking so far he creates this wooden pendant that has a design carved into it. He gives it to me. It then changes into a small, alive, mud turtle. There are two stores next to each other. I put the turtle in one of them in a showcase that is part of the counter.It is closing time. I try to talk to the owner. He is in his 50’s and is up on a ladder. He ignores me and talks to someone else. I try again. I realize he is a jerk and walk away.

2. A woman I know (not in W.L.) peels off these false eyelashes and gives them to me. They seem long when I hold them. However, the one for my right eye is a bit short. I go to a restaurant with them on. I see Charlotte S. sitting at a table as I pass. I am escorted to a large table with a place setting for one. The gun men come in and start shooting. I get on the ground. I am more annoyed than afraid. Then they leave.

Later, I am in a car in the passenger seat. Paul is driving? A woman friend is in the back seat. I ask her for an honest opinion on what my false eyelashes look like on me. She says they look ok.

Scene: Dan, a stoic man and someone else is there. Dan asks the stoic guy if he is dangerous.

Daynotes: Feeling better. Worked with Kathleen and Shaney on Snake Dream.

1. I am scuba diving at an old shop wreck. A man is also scuba diving. He has a new wife. I am curious and ask the questions like where did you meet, etc.?
2. There is a young guy on a motorcycle and a young woman who keep meeting on a street. He has made this wooden doll/character. It is made our of wood. It is yellow and has parts that move. Later, the doll turns into hippie like pants like Margie’s with the same pink, flower pattern as hers. I start to try them on. The young motorcycle guy is there and says I am putting them on backwards.

Day Notes: The most difficult day emotionally. I wasn’t very nice to Paul. I did a grief meditation and felt better. I was feeling a bit guilty about letting Kevin have it and worried it made him feel justified to cut us off. On the other hand, I felt it has been a long 15 years and I have to forgive myself for not being calm and collected.

I am at home with Paul. I keep bossing him around. I tell him I will work at not doing this. We go in a car and get gas from a pump in the yard of Julie Ann and Mike. Paul adds dirt afterward. Paul is going to stay overnight at his friends’s house. I think that would be an intrusion because they are going out of town the next morning. Paul is going to stay anyway.

There is a young woman who is excited about going to Australia to make a pickle ball court. I tell her it will be winter there so the weather will not be too different than where we are. I get photos from Sheila Le Corre with notes typed on them. They are old photos. I find out she is sending them to all the birthday goddesses.

I get in the car and drive home. Paul stays with his friend.

Day Notes: Sad and crying. Looking for therapist.