7/16/24 Trying to Get Away

I am in a city. Religious Right people are persecuting/killing Jewish people and those who are not religious.

I want to catch a public bus with the number 5A. When it stops I poke my head in and ask the driver if I have the correct bus. There isn’t a definite yes or no answer, but I think it is right. I get in the bus with my youngest sister, Becky or my daughter, Kelsi. It could be a combination of the two. Later, we meet a man and a woman . They have a red van. There is a box like container woven like a basket in the van. I hide Becky/Kelsi in the box. I go off by myself and try to hide. I am not captured, but I am trying to get away.

Scene: I am up on a hill. I look down and see a man and a woman riding horses on a road. I then see a couple of cars coming. The people in the cars are trying to capture the man and the woman. They go off into the woods. I see what direction they are going and also go in that direction.

Last scene: I am in a spa type place in the city. I am trying to leave. I see stairs across from me that lead to the outside. I can’t get to them. There is a wide space between me and the stairs which drops to the floor below. I look down and see two very thin men in bathing suits laying on a bed. Their heads are white, somewhat transparent and monster looking! On the level I am at, several people dive into these small pools. When they come out, they are all white. I decide to walk down these stairs thinking maybe ther e is a tunnel I can go through to get to the outside. I walk down. It is dark and dank. I do not feel comfortable and walk back up. I want to get outside and find the red van where Becky/Kelsi is.

I went back into the dream and found the “necessity”/treasure of it. I grew wings when I was in the spa trying to get out. They were large and turquoise. They felt too large and awkward at first. I had to practice with them. I turned around and saw a large, empty space behind me. I went way back, ran while flapping my wings and flew across the space in the spa. I climbed the stairs and went out the door. I walked about a block and turned right. There was the red van with the man and woman and Becky/Kelsi. I let Becky/Kelsi out of the basket box. The woman and man drove us out of the city and into the country. We ended up at a small community with friendly people. I felt relieved!

I worked this dream with my dream group in Hackensack. Here is what I wrote: If this were my dream, I am afraid of being captured by a philosophy of rigidity. I want to protect my soul/inner child/true self (Becky/Kelsi). I protect it by hiding it in a casket-shaped basket guarded by a man and a woman in a red van. My anima and animus? Red to me is a feeling of passion/what is important to me. At first my inner child and I get in a public bus thinking there will be freedom there. That doesn’t last. (go along with what the general public does). I then need to protect my soul so I put it in a casket/basket in a red van protected by my anima/animus. When I am up on top of the hill, I get some perspective. I see a man and woman on horses. Again, my masculine and feminine. Horses to me can represent personal freedom/power. The man and the woman go to the left into the woods (feminine-feeling-receiving). The woods= nature. They go in the direction of my nature. The spa is usually a place to relax, however, it is not a relaxing place for me. There are two male monster/alien type people and people after diving into the pools are transformed into these white people. Maybe the spa represents “The Golden Years” , but it is not for me. I think the dream is telling me that I need to take care of myself by being with like-minded people and to honor my inner self.

Ideas from others in my group: I am struggling with spiritual and religious discord. I am alone on my search and I need to lean on my family, friends and the health community to help me with my caregiving with Paul. In the dream, I am alone trying to not get caught. At the end, I go join a community. Soul work is needed. I’ve kept my spirituality safe, but need to find it and connect with it; bring it into the light. I am being shown that a transformation is necessary (diving into the pools and coming out all white). I need to focus on security, safety and connection in my life.

7/11/24 Digging up Things in a Small Yard

I am digging up things in a small yard which I think is mine. The previous owner buried a small bed and one other thing that I don’t remember. What is the most memorable is a small chair made out of cement. It is about 4 feet high. It has arms and legs. The back of the chair is shaped and looks like a very old grave marker. It has black mold on parts of it and there is writing like one sees on a grave marker. However, the writing is too faint to see. It looks like a grave marker from the early 1900’s. When I dig up the bed and the other item, I take my shovel and smash them to pieces. I try to do the same with the chair, but get not where!

Paul and I years ago at the family cabin, dug up an old log pile whose wood was old and falling apart. We unearthed a small metal bed at the time! In waking life, I went to the cabin the following day in waking life.

Small Projects Add Up Over Time

(Sunday, July 7, 2024) waxing crescent moon Leo / tarot three of wands

A dream I have had before, but the emotions are extremely cheerful. I feel it in my heart.

I am working in a very large old building. I putz. Each chore is small and completed with perfection. As the projects continue, add up, the visual age of the structure begins to decline. Focused painting and decorating makes spaces become pleasant, even beautiful. I don’t need to spend money: I find free bits and pieces that add charm. People kindly donate furniture and knick knacks.

Along the edge of one expansive space I see Cullan and Hillary’s work desks. I consider adding my white art studio tables along the next wall, but decide to add house plants instead. An interior garden.

Day notes:

I wonder if Cullan and Hillary’s work desks mean that we will share a home someday. I got to babysit the kiddos on Saturday evening.

Today I painted the first floor bedroom ceiling. I thought it would be done in two hours but it took five. I am twenty years older than the last time I painted a ceiling, and this one is a foot taller than my other house. I was hot and exhausted!

Does this dream have health aspects? I am working at understanding mental health, cognitive decline. Changing my diet a bit (“Mind Diet”), using Brain HQ online, adding supplements a few famous doctors recommend for brain health, periodically watching videos about neurology, more. When I first started BrainHQ my scores were around 45% and now they are at 70%. I’ll keep going.

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