I am in a room with two others. We are locked in. I sleep on the mattress that is on the floor for a while. The guy who did something wrong doesn’t feel good. I suggest he lay down and I will get up. Earlier he takes a panel off of the wall. It looks like we can get out that way. However, he puts the panel back.
Day notes: Read to Rowan last night. Kevin looked very tired.
#1. I am a child about 8-10 years old. I have cancer. I hold a brown teddy bear.
#2 I am on a beach. These military vehicles move onto it and disturb people. I sit with a couple of women. One of them reminds me of Teresa (young native American woman in my book club with Native American and Caucasian women). However, Teresa in the dream is caucasian and has long, blond hair. She is disappointed for some reason.
There is some “bad guy” who takes a woman’s car. Some of her kids are still in it. Her twelve year old boy is with her. They run along side the car yelling at the guy.
Now I am with Teresa and others. It is a gathering to talk about a guy who died at 38 years old. It is his birthday. He would have been 40 years old. A few of us read from these pamphlets. Some people are getting some of the man’s things like a new walker. It is emotional.
Day notes: Found out the Smiths are selling their house and property for $400,000. Wrote to their realtor about the mediation agreements. Shared my dream with the Dreamsters that had to do with confidence and creativity.
I am watching as an older woman who seems to be a shaman hang, a small spider over a man’s head. The spider dangles from a thread the shaman is holding about 2-3 feet over his head. He is in his forties with dark hair. The spider is making him feel sick. Is the spider poisonous?
I come back the next day. Now the man is underwater in a pool. A group of people take him out. At first I think he is dead, but the people revive him and he comes back to life. He survives it. it is decided the man will come to work at 10:30, three times a week. That will work out better for him.
Feelings: Nervous, scared of the spider and what it is doing to the man, Sad when I think the man drowned and then relieved when he is alive and his work schedule works out the best for him.
I worked this dream with my AZ group on 9/5/23. It does feel like an initiation that has helped balance him and he is ready to live a more balanced life. He has had to learn to trust that this initiation is safe and will heal him spiritually, physically and mentally. Some of the symbolism of the spider is creativity, personal growth, connection, past and future and self awareness. I wonder what happens when I go away. It feels like something is missing, like there should be a third ritual.
