2/28/23 Bathroom and Swimming

I am going to the bathroom in a public place. There are only three bathrooms and other women and I have to wait in line. I enter one of the bathrooms. It is a large room with a toilet and a sink. A couple of women peek over the doorway like there is a curtain partition. I tell them to go away. Both women are tall especially one of them. I see her later in a yellow convertible car. I see her from the back with a yellow dress and hat on. The car is parked on a street in a town.

The bathroom changes into a pool with lots of kids swimming in it. I reckon I can swim over on the left side where there is more room. I get my cap. I can’t find my goggles. I dig in my purse and find them. I am happy.

12/29/23 Spiders (May)

It is night. I am in an old house that I do not recognize in W.L. I stand on this old, wooden dresser which is in the kitchen. I tip a framed picture which is on the dresser by mistake and see a long spider web with lots of spiders on it. I especially notice these two large “spiders” that look more like beetles/little monsters.

I get off the dresser. Paul is there. He smells something burning. I guess when I got on the dresser, I turned on the stove by mistake. It is right next to the dresser. There were pans on the burner that I turned on. He turns off the burner and puts the pans in the sink.

The next day I go back with some people I do not know in waking life. We climb on the stove and then onto the dresser. From the dresser we enter this large room. (an open door) It is a store that is almost emptied out. I find a jar I can use to catch the two, large, spiders. We leave the room and climb down from the dresser. I see three kids; two sisters and one brother, sitting on the floor. I ask them if they like spiders. They say no.

I then realize I forgot the jar from the store, but I find another one. I am about to clean up the spiders and the web, but ask the woman owner of the store and she says she has already dusted and cleaned them off. I look and see a spot she missed (a few spiders and a web) and brush that off the dresser. I feel relieved.

A scene while up in the store. My mom is there and is holding a grey, Persian cat. I pet it. Earlier, I say a small black and white cat on the dresser. Mom says they are Molly’s cats.

Meredith: In the Spider-Man series there is a phrase: “spider sense” the door to another space on top of the dresser reminds me of a hidden room or space that is ripe for discovery. I wonder what creative endeavor needs spider energy and its weaving skills. Perhaps the pots on the stove, something burning on the back burner. Cleaning certainly fits the stable task of Hercules,

Susanne: You know this night you are going to weave a spider web? In the incubation. A web of connection and wisdom. Do you know that in many cultures the spider created the world? She is spinning the web of dreams. I stand on wood (symbol of my tree of life?) and tip on a picture in my mind. Like I want to remind me of the mythological origin of the world of dreams. Paul smells something burning and turns off the stove. A wonderful cooperation between husband and wife looking out for each other. The next day we do exactly the same and the burning induced magic: there is a portal. Almost like Narnia. There are three children, almost like in Narnia. Do your magic, Bonnie

Svitlana: removing, eradicating useless thoughts, getting to our true Self. Don’t complicate anything with senseless thoughts: they are simply a web you can get tangled in. (a message from spider)

12/28/23 Not Possible to Photograph (April)

I wake up in the morning crying very hard. I realize I cannot make it as a photographer. I then go and take a shower. After my shower, I go to my sister, Chris’ room. She is laying on the floor crying. I get down on the floor with her and ask her if she is crying because her husband died. I have a hard time remembering his name. Then I do. It is Keenan. (in waking life, her husband’s name is Richard and he is alive. My son-in-law is named Keenan)

I then go to the Celebration of Life for Chris’ husband. When I go in, his brother comes up and gives me a big hug. I feel uncomfortable. I feel I should feel more compassion for him, but I don’t.

I go into the backroom where there is a kitchen to make myself a cup of tea. My sister, Becky, is there. She shows me these two, large cards (like Tarot cards). They are pictures of basements. She says they represent snow. I ask her about going to Rutgers (a resort in northern Minnesota). Chris told me she had recently been there.

We go outside. There is a waterslide with warm water, running down it. It is winter outside. Becky asks if I want to go down it. I say no.

I am then inside at the Celebration of Life. A woman comes up to me and asks if I would take some photos of the singer who is singing for the celebration. I go to find my coat with my iPhone in the pocket. I look all over and cannot find it.

The last scene is where Paul and I are driving home. Paul is driving. I tell him I don’t have my iPhone. I feel nervous, but accepting.

Susanne: Big hug. You’ve been through a lot of heartache. (I told the group about being cut off by Kevin and Antonia). I am fascinated by the water in your dream. The first appearance are the tears you shed, the shower (like tears warm water flowing down with the purpose of cleansing), crying again now on the floor: emotion touches earth, warm water in the form of tea, cold water in the form of snow on Tarot cars, warm water on the water slide. The Tarot cards seem to be a positive turning point. Snow is frozen water, frozen emotions. It’s easier to analyze in that form. The final form is warm water running down a water slide. Usually children play with that. Somehow I get a positive feeling because of this ending.

Meredith: Family dynamics and feelings of loss. If it were my dream. Water is a cleansing element. The smart phone missing may be associated with lack of the ability to communicate. The tarot type cards, hints for future efforts to dig into the depths of the issues. Much love and hugs to you.

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