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04/24/2023

4/14/23 Playing with a Green Snake

I am playing with a medium-sized, green snake. It is in a basket with part of its body and head is up, out of the basket. It keeps trying to strike/bite me, but it is a game. A guy in his twenties come. I tell him not to get too close. He has never done played like this before.

A “If this were my dream” from Elaine:

Healing, Playful Transformation

If this were my dream, I am engaged in a playful game with a medium sized green snake. For me, green is a color of healing and this snake is a symbol of my own healing, especially after my knee surgery. I like playing with this snake and realize that my healing is beginning; I have shed the pain, for the most part from my surgery. There is still a give and take as I move forward. The healing is occurring and yet I am still in the game of the healing process. A new beginning, like spring, is a promise of new life, a transformation for me. I feel this in my heart chakra. The young man in his twenties could represent the active part of myself when I was in my 20’s and could move freely. However, that part of me has changed and needs to be careful, not to be too active and respect my healing process.

04/19/202304/25/2023

4/19/23 Riding the Wild Horse

My family owns two horses. One horse is tame and the other is wild. The tame horse is ready to ride and I assume I will ride her. However, now I am to ride the wild horse. I am shown a cart that I will use with the wild horse. I am to play a game like golf? She will be harnessed to the cart. I talk to one of my sisters to see if she’ll ride the tame horse and come with me. The last scene is me bringing a long, flowing, silky, blue gown that has a train, upstairs and hang it on the door of Molly and Sheila’s (sisters) bedroom door. The wild horse will be wearing the gown. Molly and Sheila are both sleeping.

Feeling: both excited and nervous

Poem after doing Victoria’s workshop:

I am an old, wooden cart, full of opposites.

I am both wild and tame.

I am meditative, yet can connect with others.

Sometimes I am private

Other times I like to be the center of attention

I am on the door step of change

And I will be awaking soon

to share my humor, heart, anger,

intelligence and outspokenness

From Denise, “If this were my dream”:

My family of origin behaves both wild and tame. Even though I am private, often the secret one not communicated to directly, I have the power of the wild. I can tame and inspire the mustang-mare. Freedom is important, but I am the caring seamstress, the affectionate knitter of family comfort. I don’t yet fully understand my fit, but I will be shown in the world with other people, and adorned for my full awakening. I am happy to bring this natural celebration up, up, up the stairs. It is that time of life. My confidence is smooth and flows like water.

04/15/202304/15/2023

Two Episodes Of Sorrow That Are Remembrance, Not Fear

(Saturday, April 15, 2023) waning crescent moon Aquarius / tarot Hanged Man

My sister Jo is with me in this dream. She is a year younger than I am. She retired last year, a year earlier than my forced retirement in January.

The atmosphere of the dream is dark, nighttime. We wander around together, in and out of bland buildings. Perhaps they are office buildings that deservingly lack my attention.

I cry early on in the dream, my guess is from losing my old job. When my tears are done shedding, Jo and I walk together for quite a long time. We reach a large building and are joined by a young boy child, nearly infant age. A toddler. We find him in a room that mirrors our childhood bedroom. He has been expecting us.

I know it is time to focus on the new child. Jo is very attentive and grateful for his presence, but I begin to weep again. This time I feel deep sorrow in my heart that there is no appreciation for the creativity of my former professional work of 45 years. Jo is a bit impatient with me. I understand her mild frustration, and I will let go of my sadness. I will move on.

Day notes:

I saw a photo posted on LinkedIn yesterday from a former coworker in Europe. It showed a table full of printed samples of literature I had created over the years: catalogs, brochures, flyers. That made me very sad. Management decided that anyone could replace my design skills, which absolutely is not true.

I was envious that Jo had the financial ability to retire at 64. But I met with my financial advisor this week and she said I can retire now if I am ready. That was a huge relief. I now feel less stress and pressure to find a job. Jo must be envious that I received a large severance check because it angered her that her department of over 30 years was eliminated shortly after she retired. She would have been given a large severance check too. Jo had to pay $1,500 a month in COBRA for healthcare, but I was lucky to get Medicare.

The Hanged Man tarot card expresses this dream very clearly.