Health Message

(Saturday, July 4, 2015) Moon: waning gibbous Aquarius / tarot: Life Weaver (Wheel of Fortune, Spider Woman)

Many periods of awakening and dreaming last night. The recurring story of attending the dream conference appears. I am standing in a group, listening to Lou talk about his digestive health issue. He calls it ERD disease, not GERD disease.

I have a burning question for Lou. I have had a spark of inspiration and believe that, in addition to artists, the conference needs the wisdom and beauty of poets. I listen for quite some time, very respectfully, because his level of education far surpasses mine. His experience with dreaming, at least professionally, far surpasses mine. He has run for the board of the IASD and organized several regional events in New York.

Finally, I interrupt, blurting out: “I have a question!” Lou looks at me with great disapproval. He pulls me aside and spends several minutes explaining the pain and complexity of his disease. I feel terribly guilty and give him my full attention. I listen with compassion and patience. Eventually he finishes. He allows me to ask my poet question. I am surprised that he finds my idea to be very valuable.

Day notes:

When Chris awoke this morning, he told me he had suffered terrible stomach pain in the night, keeping him up for hours. I immediately thought that my dream of Lou was connected to this, even though Lou and Chris are not alike in any way.

Perhaps the dream is saying that Chris is more evolved on a soul level than his simple life suggests. I remember years ago reading “The Tao of Pooh” by Benjamin Hoff. From Wiki: “Hoff regards Pooh’s simpleminded nature, unsophisticated worldview and instinctive problem-solving methods as conveniently representative of the Taoist philosophical foundation … Winnie-the-Pooh himself, for example, personifies the principles of wei wu wei, the Taoist concept of effortless doing, and pu, the concept of being open to but unburdened by experience.”

I have been considering suggesting to the IASD board Ann Baring as a keynote speaker next year at Rolduc.

Busy

(Saturday, June 27, 2015) Moon: waxing gibbous Scorpio / Tarot: eight of wands

Lots of dreams last night, at least four or five. I wake up feeling very immersed in all of them.

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In one dream, I am at a conference, in a large hotel. Again, deep red brick like the dreams before the IASD conference. I am standing in front of a retail counter in the lobby, buying a few snacks: a small bag of peanuts and some beverages. The space has the same relaxed ambiance of the coffee shop at the Virginia Beach Convention Center. A woman in her forties, shorter than I and with frizzy grey-blonde hair, is ringing my order. As I hand her my currency, a door kitty-corner from us flies open. A small black boy rushes out. He grabs the bag of peanuts and runs back to his room.

To my great surprise, the cashier charges me for the peanuts that the boy has stolen, but does not replace them with another bag from her stock. In her mind, there is no need to accost or punish the child, since I have enough money to pay for the goods. I argue with her but get nowhere. So I walk the few steps to the boy’s hotel room, knock on the door, and initiate a discussion with his sister. She is also very young, but quite cagey, and I discover that the boy grabbed the peanuts under her orders. She refuses to pay for the peanuts or return them and shuts the door on me.

I go back to the store, trying one last time to get the cashier to either give me my money or relinquish the simple snack from her inventory. I threaten her, I tell her I’m going to talk to her manager, but she doesn’t budge.

Exasperated, I walk down a shallow flight of stairs to the hotel’s brightly lit lower level, where the management offices are located. Betty Davis, the African American hypnotherapist who guided my past-life regression at the Edgar Cayce A.R.E. (Association for Research and Enlightenment), is the hotel manager. Betty takes my hands and holds my arms lovingly as I tell the tale. Her gentleness calms me and I let go of the whole incident. She walks me up the stairs to the hallway that leads to the hotel exit. I feel very nourished and grateful to her.

I walk to the end of the corridor and come across my coworkers Cyndi, Louis and Steve. There is a fancy car parked in the middle of the hallway: apparently the three have come for an auto show, but are now ready to leave. Louis and Steve walk out the glass door, but Cyndi is stuck and deeply upset. She needs help from me with something before she can make her way out of the building. When I awake I don’t remember what it is but in the dream I am able to provide for her emotional healing (she has stage 4 breast cancer).

I leave the hotel, traveling on foot to the Norfolk Airport. I get on a huge plane that is scheduled to fly to Europe. I have been on this plane before in my dreams.

I walk past the pilots and attendants with my ticket in hand. It’s the kind of white paper tear-off ticket one gets at a deli or bakery. I see three digits, and I know them in my dream, but I’m not certain of them when I wake up (354?).

The plane has two sections at least four seats across with a wide center aisle and equally wide aisles along the windows. I see my coworker Christine (who just returned from a month-long vacation in Italy) and a male coworker friend of hers that I don’t recognize. He is in my seat. I show him my ticket. He smiles, refusing to move. He tells me there are plenty of empty seats on the plane, which there are, so I find another seat in the left section.

Once settled, I walk to the front of the plane to talk to the pilots. On this flight, no one is required to remain seated and no one is required to use a seat belt. Party plane. I stand slightly behind and to the right of the friendly copilot. He bends his head back a bit to chat with me, grinning, informing me of the flight’s destinations and flight path.

I hold on to the back of his seat and watch through the front window as the plane taxis over a causeway, like the bridge from Chincoteague to Assateague. Once across the narrow channel, the big plane lifts dramatically up into the air and heads for the clouds.

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In another dream, I arrive via canoe or kayak to the island within Moore Lake, the lake one block from where I grew up (across from the red brick high school). Only in the dream, the island is on the east side of the lake, not the west. People say the real island is an Indian mound.

From the sand beach I walk up a steep embankment. My sister Jamie’s fiance Bob has planted a trio of small pines near the top of the hill. I caress the slender branches, then continue on to the peak, to the raku pit where I have created beautiful, large pots for many years. Other potters are there to greet me. Some are relatives but we are all like family. We talk about the vessels we have made and the ones we are working on now. I hold one of mine in my hands: the surface has a rough, fingered edge that glistens iridescent blue and purple.

I look down toward the lake and see that Alea and Cullan have arrived in their kayaks. This makes me very happy. When they reach the pottery all of us roll down the back side of the hill, away from the water, into a large sand basin. Like children at the beach. The sand is warm and deep and brown.

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Day notes:

I think the first dream is a synopsis of some of the events at the IASD conference. Why peanuts? They are a Virginia crop, kind of a big deal. Going nuts, getting petty. Worrying about peanuts. There were only two African Americans at the conference that I saw, a young man and a young woman. Betty Davis was pretty amazing, a gentle and healing presence. And next year we fly to the Netherlands for the conference.

Perhaps some of the news and discussions about the hate crimes in Charleston, South Carolina are filtering in too.

Forgiving my mischievous inner children.

The second dream was triggered by my nephew’s wedding last week and the delightful hours spent with family. I had a great time with Alea and Cullan. He is looking so healthy and happy and healed.

Boats and pots are both called vessels.

Moore Moor More

Flood

(Friday, June 26, 2015) Moon: waxing gibbous Scorpio / Tarot: Ten of flames, the Horah

A group of us, friends, are standing together on the earth, waiting for the arrival of a huge flood. We can see the curvature of the planet, even though we are very intimate with the soil beneath our feet.

We watch the waters come. Liquid seeps over our toes, then rises to our knees. Soon we are floating and bobbing in the waves, which now cover the entire world. The sea is pleasantly warm and salty.

Since all land is gone, I know that at some point I will have to take a full breath of water into my lungs and surrender to the depths.

Out of the corner of my left eye I see a Great White Shark swimming toward me. Some part of my mind has forgotten the danger of predators, forgotten that humans are not at the top of the ocean food chain. I consider that the arrival of the shark could be a blessing, saving me from many days of suffering.

Day notes:

My two dreams today are thematically identical. Identical plots, only slightly variant in form.

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(Wednesday, July 1, full moon Capricorn) Because this dream and the earthquake dream are so short, I think they may have precognitive qualities. I’ve been on the lookout.

On Monday afternoon I left work at 4. The western horizon was orange. “This means something,” I thought. By the time I reached Eden Prairie, the sky opened up and I was caught in the middle of a hailstorm. Dozens of cars tried to find shelter underneath the freeway bridges. There was no room for me, so I kept on driving. The wind was roaring in from the east in a near-horizontal wave (even though the clouds had come from the north and west). I managed to hide alongside a semi truck for a little protection.

When I arrived home the yard looked as if snow had fallen. White ice everywhere. Dream group was scheduled at Peter’s, so I left again at 6:30. Soon after I hit the road, a second round of hail fell on the house. The tarot card I drew Monday morning was the five of cups, The Storm.

Sharks have been casing the neighborhood ever since, trying to snag roof and siding repairs from the residents. I even got a call on my cell phone at work from one of the contractors. How did they get my number? That was extremely upsetting.

Hail
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