I am teaching something; maybe a dream group. Deb has done something that disturbs me. I tell her to leave. She won’t. I tell her to leave a few times and she still will not. Feeling: Angry
I incubated a dream with the request: What is one thing that will help me be honest and kind to Paul related to his dementia. I have continued to modify my request. My latest is: What is one thing that will help me own my power in a healthy way? (not just with Paul, but others)
I had my dream group from AZ on the 11th. Barbara is one of the new members and she was the dreamer. She wants to make comments on people’s dreams or what they have shared. She asked if she could make a comment and I said yes. (not a good idea!!) Then it “got out of control” and became more of a free for all-people making suggestions, sharing stories, etc. Very ungrounded. And this bothered me. I realized I need to remind people more than I do of how I do dream work.
After this dream, I pulled a tarot card asking what Deb represented. I pulled the knight of wands which fits Deb perfectly-high energy, adventurous, likes to travel, etc. (similar energy to Barbara) So, then I wondered if my ego is fighting that kind of energy and wants to be in control. I don’t know. I just know, to me, it didn’t feel good during and after the dream group!
The next night when I incubated a dream asking for how to be honest with Paul re his dementia, I got words that said; “Play together!” That was a good suggestion. I have been conscious about that and have been “lighter”.
Bonnie, I am guessing you will share this dream on Monday? You already have provided helpful thoughts about this dream, thank you.
I have some trouble with Susan’s group for a lot of reasons. She is always in control (members don’t get to ask lots of questions as Jeanne, Peter, you and I do), although she is kind and very, very smart about being the dream guide. Most of the people in her group have known each other for a long time, so things pop up better for them than they do for me, when I barely know the dreamer. An analytical bunch of folks, which I am not.
For me, compassion and spiritual wisdom is the most important aspect of working on dreams together. “If this were my dream.” Deb is a recurring character in so many of your dreams, like my two dream guides. They (an aspect of ourselves?) are here to help us, whether bringing up the negative or the positive.
I like that you pulled a tarot card. Lately that has been a good idea for me, too.