- I am shooting myself in the foot and a couple other places. I was going to shoot myself in the head, but realize I will die and decide not to do so. The shots do not hurt. A scene where I am sitting with two women. I am on a toilet trying to go BM.
- I am petting some horses. Some of them are laying down. There are some city boys who are riding horses. The cousins (my kids generation) from my family are around. Freya is there and she is walking. The building we are all in was to be blown up. I am with the guys who would do so. However, it is decided not to do so. It is a happy party and everyone is having a good time.
I think shooting myself is a wakeup call about hurting myself through letting the situation with Kevin get the better of me.