(Sunday, July 10, 2016) moon: first quarter Libra / tarot: two of swords reversed
I dream I go to Edie’s house for a healing. But first, I use a rope to rappel down an 800-foot cliff at the edge of the sea. The cliff is narrow and vertical, formed of red and grey rocks.
In the next scene a young man and I arrive at Edie’s house at the same time. In this dream, her house is modern, not a cottage in Cornwall. She is still a healer, and she still has dark hair. We are the same age.
I let the young man go first for his session with Edie. I have a vision of his intent: he is going to jump (or fall?) all the way down the cliff, into the sea. This is terrifying. How will she counsel him, I wonder. Will he survive? That seems impossible. My heart begins to break. I know first-hand the danger of the cliff.
Edie directs me to the bathroom across the hall. I fill the tub with warm, herb-infused water and take a relaxing bath while I wait to speak with her. I masturbate and an orgasm wakes me up out of the dream.
Day notes:
I continued working on my Edie clay piece this weekend, starting over on the body. Happy with the head. I feel blessed that she visited me in a dream while I am focused on her portrait. Am I Edie? Maybe.
The young man’s jump from the very high cliff reminded me (while I was dreaming) of a dream I had before 9/11. A few weeks or months before the Twin Towers burned and caused people to leap from windows to their deaths, I had a dream that so frightened me I awoke with my heart pounding furiously. The dream stayed with me until that awful day. I dreamt my parents were in a car at the top of a very tall mountain, like Pike’s Peak. Their car flew over the side of the mountain and plummeted thousands of feet. I watched as their vehicle sailed through the clear blue sky, slowly, slowly. Crashing and killing them. Is another terror event like 9/11 on the way in America? Certainly the streets are full of terror for young black men.
Last night I watched some YouTube videos on astrology. Venus in Taurus: extreme sensuality and romantic generosity. North node in Scorpio, fifth house, opposing south node in Taurus, eleventh house: north node is destiny, south node is past life karma. South node conjunction the sun denotes difficulty moving from old karma into destiny and purpose. Fifth house is creativity, children and true love. North node in Scorpio is about depth psychology, psychic and spiritual gifts, past life information. Alchemy.