Author: bonniemitsch

I sweep out my basement (not w.l.) with a basic broom. There are a lot of dirt and dust bunnies. The floor is cement. The basement is small and square in shape. There is unpainted sheetrock on the walls. About 6-8 inches of sheetrock is missing from the bottom of the walls. There is a window on one wall. It is placed over to the right side of the wall. A double and a single bed are against the right wall with two night stands. I decide to move the beds over to the left where there is more room and place the one night stand I like the best between them.

I ask Kelsi who is around 10 years old for help. She agrees. I am my age because I know I have bad knees. A 12 year old boy is coming to sleep in the basement.

Notes: I am sweeping out my unconscious. The missing sheet rock reminds me of what happened to our Walker basement because of water damage. So, I have some emotional damage. My inner anima, Kelsi, is calm and grounded and is helping me. The rearranging of the beds is my rearranging of my unconscious, getting ready for my young animus.

I am subbing for Laura in her classroom. The tired, woman principal calls me in to sub. Laura has left no sub notes. The first class hour does not go well. The kids are middle school age. I ask everyone to say their names and one thing they like. The kids are talking and not cooperating. I yell at a girl who is talking.

The next session goes better. I go with the flow. Kindergarteners and first graders come in and the class plays games with them.

The next day for the first hours, a girl brings a movie she made. I have a preview of it. There are dancers in bright costumes which are flowing. She has a bit of technical difficulty at first. Something in the shape of a square (information) won’t leave the screen. I suggest, just start the movie and it might go away. It does. I feel much better.

1. Paul and I are walking through a house we are having built. Just the wooden structure is finished-no walls. We are upstairs. I have a white bra and black panties on. There are workmen down below, working. I pull my panties down one time and then back up. I am very comfortable. The workmen don’t seem to notice me. A scene where Paul and I go by houses that are finished. Some are at an angle to each other without any trees or vegetation in their yards. Then we walk in front of houses that are in a row. They all have tall tree around them. I like these, but not the others.
2. I am with Kelsi and Paul though Kelsi doesn’t seem to be waking life Kelsi. She has lost 50 pounds. Paul tells her she could lose 30 more. I tell Paul, “Don’t say that!” Kelsi looks good and not overweight.