There is a snippet about a man getting angry and having trouble blowing up a “blow up man”.
I am at a fair with Kelsi and Keenan. They are taking care of my large purse. They have a horse they cannot quite control and the horse somehow gets my purse dirty. They were in some event at the fair with their horse.
Daynotes: Back in Minneapolis, staying at my sister and brother-in-law’s house.
I pull the bed away from the window. The bedroom is upstairs in an older house. I put the bed in front of the door so no one can get in. I plant seeds under the window. Once they are growing I move the blockage.
Now there are two twin beds under the window on either side of it. Deb and Joyce will sleep there. There is a third bed in the bedroom which I will sleep in.
Next scene: Paul and I hug. He is getting undressed for bed. We are in the same bedroom as above.
This is what I wrote after working the dream: If this were my dream, I need some private time to get in touch with being in the present moment and enjoy what I am doing even when it is a “task”. (block the door with the bed). Bedroom/bed=a private place. I plant seeds-new growth. I do not let anyone in until the plants are established. (somehow having anyone else come in will hurt this growth. ) Maybe this is me getting in touch with my inner self and not being influenced by others. When the plants are established I end the blockade and put two beds on either side of the window for Deb and Joyce who are old friends that have never influenced me in a negative way. They are very supportive friends. They also represent having supportive people in my life-not people who make me doubt myself. Paul comes and we hug. He represents connection with my masculine energy. This is a balancing energy. He undresses for bed. He has nothing to hide. This dream may be a confirmation that I am more ready to deal with Kevin if and when we reconnect.
There are two trails. I have only hiked the first trail. A group hikes the 2nd trail. They are both about the same length of two to three miles. However, the second trail is at a higher elevation.
I am driving when a group finishes the second trail. They are tired. I give a few of the older people a drive back.
The next day Paul and I are to go hiking with Madeline and Jack. I am sleeping. Jack calls at 8:25 and wakes me up. There is confusion on what trail we are to meet at to go hiking.
Day Notes: getting ready to leave AZ-cleaning and packing, etc. Started writing to Kevin in a journal. Bryn suggested that as an exercise. That has been helpful to freely express my emotions. I think Bryn meant it for putting out positive emotions/feelings towards Kevin. However, I am not there yet! I also worked on my VHS’s of Kevin and Kelsi when they were young. That helps with positive emotions.
