2/3/25 Denise Comes to Visit

Denise has come to visit. I was not expecting her. We are standing outside. All of a sudden, Denise’s right shoulder blade spontaneously catches on fire. I push her to the ground and get the fire out.

Dave and Marsha are at my house (not waking life). Denise and I are inside with them. I have a hard time introducing them to each other because I am having trouble remembering their names! I do remember, but it takes a while. Dave has slept in the basement bedroom that does not have a roof over it. That is where Denise will sleep.

I tell Denise that Paul and I are going to buy a new house. I tell her about the garage that is huge with a dirt floor and no roof. I see it in my mind’s eye.

Day notes: starting to copy VHS’s to DVD’s. These are old movies and they bring up memories of old times.

I worked on this dream with Kathleen and Shaney. This is what I wrote: If this were my dream, a part of me that Denise represents has come to visit unexpectedly. Maybe it is a part of me I am not that well acquainted with or forgot about. Her right shoulder blade spontaneously combusts. This freaks me out. I push her to the ground to put it out. This could be a positive image- something to do with creativity? I think of the shoulder blades as being expressive especially when I see an animal like a cat move-similar to a dance move. The right side could have to do with the future. Maybe it is something I am not ready for? (to have my memories changed?) Dave and Marsha-trouble with my memory. Dave stays in the basement bedroom without a roof. There is no protection from the elements. However, the room is open to the sky. The roof could represent memory. Dave could represent masculine energy-the action principal. Denise could represent feminine energy. That energy is also going to experience the no roof bedroom. Paul and I are to move to a new house with a large, tall garage with no roof and a dirt floor. It is empty. So, if this has to do with memory, maybe it is an opportunity to revisit my old memories with the realization they can be changed or reinterpreted. Looking at these DVD;s is bringing back the time in my life a good 38-39 years ago. Maybe, they will help me bring back more positive memories especially any self-criticism.

Ideas from Kathleen and Shaney. A garage could represent memory because it is a place where things are stored. Memories can be malleable. The song: Happy Like a Room without a Roof by Pharrell Williams.

1/25/25 Protecting my Daughters

I am at Shady Oak. I hear the doorbell at 6:30 p.m. I am upstairs. I go downstairs and open the door. No one is there. I talk to my eight and ten year old girls and tell them if they hear the doorbell to not open the door or do outside. Earlier I read about a predatory priest. I see lights from a car coming down the driveway.

Later I talk to the girls. I find out that my eight year old did go outside and talk to the priest who was in his car. I tell her to never do that again.

On January 11th I had a dream about protecting my baby. I am not sure why this is coming up now. Nothing seems to be triggering protection from my waking life. I do remember when I was 8 years old, I had touched the host during communion to stop it from falling off of my tongue. After mass (this is with all the students on a week day), the priest came down the aisle asking who touched the host. I raised my hand and had to walk across the pew and have him wipe my hands. That day at school, during lunch time in the cafeteria, I got a lot of teasing. I was a very shy, sensitive kid and that was hard for me!

1/17/25 Getting Married

I am going to get married to Paul again. I go to pick up my wedding dress. The woman at the shop says she can’t clean it. I was in the store waiting for it to be cleaned. The woman still charges me $2 and this makes me angry. She could have just told me she couldn’t do it.

I go to the church. I see Janet Little and say hi. There are people around. I climb these stairs to go to a room where I will put make-up on and get ready for photos. The church is nice and old.

Earlier I see a brother of the groom who will be the best man. I am an observer. He stands next to the groom. It is not Paul.

A scene where I am swimming on my back in the nude. I see I have too much fat on my belly. (true in waking life!)

Feeling: I am really not into the wedding. I am nonchalant. I am young.

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