Author: bonniemitsch

I walk to this open, dirt area surrounded by trees. Not far away is an abandoned, light turquoise house as well as a functional, medium sized building. I carry a short snake which I have wrapped in a soft, off-white cloth. I see a short stake where I am to sleep. I let my snake go.

I then see a strong man carrying this beautiful, dark-haired woman who is sleeping. She wears a long, red gown. He lays her down at another sleeping area not far away.

Later, I carry the woman back to her sleeping space and again she is sleeping. When she wakes up, I suggest she sleeps in my space with me for safety and for companionship. She agrees. I am happy.

There are about 10 of us. We are younger, maybe teenagers. We will all sleep in the open, dirt area. And we all had to bring our own snakes with us and let them go out in nature. We meet with a guy in the building not far away who is a bit older and is like a counselor. He tells us he will call our parents after the first day and report on how we are doing. I grab the letters we wrote to our parents and give them to the counselor.

Feeling: excited.

Day Notes: I have been reviewing my dreams from last year and writing down reoccurring symbols. I was not sure which dreams to choose to share on Monday when we meet. I wanted also to share dreams where one was near the beginning of the year, one near the middle and one around now. Having this dream last night settled it. And snakes are a big symbol for me.

I shared my three snake dreams with the Dreamsters. Some ideas were that I was becoming the beautiful woman in red. The color read representing a time for love. I am taking care and keeping company with myself. I don’t have to depend on other like the strong man. On the other hand, I am with about 10 others. I am not dealing with any struggles on my own. We are teenagers. A time when I am developing an ego.

My short snake may represent it has lost its sting, not hurtful to others. Letting my snake go in nature may represent letting my conditioning go. It could also mean letting my ego go. The counselor is a mediator between my parents and me. The veil is thin. There is understanding between us that did the best job they could.

Why do I have snake dreams periodically? They could show up when I feel betrayed. In this dream I let my snake go. This could represent letting that old wound go like I let my snake go. In the dream where I look into the snakes eyes could represent facing this old wound. The three snakes in one dream where two are dead and one alive could represent three lessons. Two snakes are dead. This could represent, two lessons are done. I ask Paul for help with the last snake that is alive. I am dealing with the third lesson and I am asking for help.

I talk to a group of people and suggest that someone become the leader. I tell them all the leader needs to to is to suggest activities and then people can do what they want. One of the activities is covering someone with leaves when they lay on the ground, with just their head showing. I like that activity.

Deb suggests having a sauna. The two other women we are with do not want to do that. I tell Deb I am up for that. She is a bit hesitant. I suggest we go and start the fire because it is a wood burning sauna.

Sheila L. comes. She is coming down the aisle where Deb and I are sitting. Sheila pulls a muscle in her leg.

D.N. Kevin called in the later afternoon. He didn’t sound as depressed as he did in September. However, It felt like we continued to talk past each other. He is still holding onto where I have errored. Example: not treating Markus and Rowan equally. Being angry when I asked to have closure with Rowan when he stopped our Zoom reading. He feels that I was insulting his parenthood. I worked at not responding defensively. I told him that it has been a difficult year for me. That it is very hurtful to be rejected. I asked him if he had ever been rejected. He said he hadn’t but accepted that it was hurtful to me. I also said having our grandchildren taken away is very difficult. And that he probably wouldn’t understand what that is like until her becomes a grandparent. We left it where we would try to get to know each other as two people-not so much as mother and son. We are going to try by emailing each other. He still won’t let us have any contact with the kids.

I was thinking that Deb suggesting a sauna having to do with deep cleansing. Deb is a very positive, happy person.