I am at Shady Oak. Kevin, Antonia and their baby are there. I am with them. We are on a field to the left of the house when facing the pond. Kevin and Antonia are cleaning up the field (picking up sticks, etc.) Kevin is holding their baby. He is fussy, but they have him on a schedule and Kevin is holding him off from eating. I ask him about that.
I am now with my mom inside the house. She tells me my boat (kayak?) has been moved to the left in the yard in front of the pond. There is to be some clean up or changes being made right.
Feeling: Feeling “careful” with Kevin and Antonia. My mom seems a bit nervous.
I am with a woman professor who teaches dream work. After her lecture, I go with her to her office. We talk. I tell her about Toko-pa’s book. The professor doesn’t listen and is not into talking about dream work. We start to leave. I see that the professor has a canon camera like mine as well as a long lens. I tell her that it is my lens. I take it and then realize it isn’t my lens because there is a flash at the end of the lens and I don’t have a flash. I ask her if that works well and she says yes.
Later, I realize I left my purse in the professor’s office. I go back and look around and can’t find it. (not my waking life purse). I can’t remember what my purse looked like. I find a smaller, tan colored purse and pick that up. I think maybe the professor picked mine up by mistake.
When I leave a male professor comes into the office. I ask him to lock up.
A man agrees to eat this bug for $1200. He gets the money, but runs away. I am with him. We are on foot. We take back roads to avoid getting caught. We avoid capture for a year.
Now I am an observer. There is a woman who does eat the bug and has papers to prove it. She is safe and her parents are relieved. The man eventually does get caught and is made to eat the bug. He eats it and it is not so bad! The man and woman start a business. It is called The Red Bug. (the bug that was eaten was grey like in the previous dream).
A scene where I am staying at a woman’s house. She is in trouble. An elephant is let loose in her house and destroys things. We (?) are staying with her and witness this.
Some ideas on elephants: They can stand for wisdom. They also represent family bonds, staying in touch with family as well as accepting family members. To find solutions to problems and persevere. Look at the big picture. Self individuation and transformation. I also thought about the expression: An elephant in the room.
I shared this dream and the other one about the bug and elephant with my dream group in AZ.
This is what I wrote: The bug dream about the woman and myself having the grey beetle and black bug on our backs and us freaking out seems to represent having something that is bugging me. But when it is investigated, there is nothing there. So, is it real?
The second bug dream where the man takes the money, but then runs away from eating the bug, may represent my inner male doing something unethical or it could represent Kevin? Taking the money represents taking something valuable, but not following through with a promise. My dream ego is going along with him and after a year, he is captured and made to eat the bug. It is not so bad. The woman did follow through. Together they start a business, So, the masculine and feminine are aligned-“wholeness”. This seems like a positive resolution. So, it could be saying that this rift between Kevin and I will be healed? Or, I need to accept what is bugging Kevin and not take it personally and act so defensively?
The two elephant dreams represent my inner conflict related to Kevin cutting me off. Laying down verse destroying. This seems to represent my two inner selves: one that is compassionate and understanding and one that is angry and wants to “destroy”.
