I am in a boat on choppy water. There is a man driving the boat and four, younger, native men. We are being driven to a resort. I am to give ice cream to the native man that is “mine”. The men are all lined up (I think we are out of the boat, now). The ice cream hardens and creates a backing.
Note: I am rewatching Dark Winds, a series that takes place on the Navaho Nation.
I am in Minneapolis with a couple other women whom I do not know in waking life. We are driving on 494. I think I am driving. We get off of the freeway to go to this large photography store. However, it is not there anymore.
We then go into an office and talk with a woman named Madge. We ask her about the photography store. She draws us a map on how to get there.
Now we are walking. We go down a hallway and take a left turn. We are then in a crowded church. The service is just about to start. It feels like it is a holiday and it is in the middle of the day. We walk down the aisle on the right. We then go out a side door to the outside.
We run into Margi who is coming into the church. I tell her that we are looking for a photography store. She decides to help us. The map is a bit confusing. We come to a crossroad. I go left and the others go right. I pass by these beautiful flowers on the side of the road. I then walk along side a small, black girl about seven or eight years old. We talk and she makes up some story that I cannot remember.
I stop at a small restaurant and have a bowl of soup. Then Margi comes in and says they found a small photo shop in the other direction. I go to the counter to pay for my soup. I wait for my waitress to come. There are a few men sitting at the counter. I am on the far left. The man next to me is smoking. Margi is waiting outside. I can tell the men are attracted to her. I then go out and tell Margi that there used to be a huge photo store around here years ago.
Feeling: Frustrated, but determined
I incubated this dream asking; what is the main thing I need to be cognizant about with this new beginning with Kevin.
I worked this dream with the Dreamsters. Here is what I wrote: If this were my dream, it summarizes the journey I have been on since Kevin cut me off. I have support in this journey (two women, Madge, Margi-all feminine support), Friends, family, spiritual support, communities like my dream groups and Alonnon, Madge could represent books I have read and podcasts I have listened to- “office”)
The large photography store could represent me wanting the relationship with Kevin to be like it used to be, That is in the past and maybe my image of that relationship was really not what I want and need.
I have had to take this journey alone, even though I have had lots of support. I have grown a lot. I have become more spiritual, more present (noticing the beautiful flowers) and enjoying children even if they are not my grandsons. And accepting of others who are different (the smoker).
Margi is a guide (feminine helper, Motherly) and is hleping me to true intimacy with myself and hence with others. The ending of the dream is positive. I feel like I belong and have found my tribe.
Other insights from my group: Kevin writing back is a small beginning. It is about the never ending journey going through life with the spirit of a free spirited child. It is important to pause for nourishment. I am looking for the true story, not made up ones. It is a dilemma between what I think I want and what I need. The big photo store could represent “perfection”. When I let go of that I find true intimacy with myself and others.
I go to Lowes and try to get reimbursed for an order that was out of stock. I am dealing with a young man who is arrogant and treats me like I am not worth his while. I am overwhelmed.
In waking life we did cancel an order because they were out of stock. I hadn’t seen the reimbursement on our charge card. However, that day it did go through. Then it happened again. I was told to order what we wanted from this other Lowes store and then they said it was out of stock a couple of days later. I think there is a message here!
