Author: bonniemitsch

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4/20/25 A Seal

I wrote this in the middle of the night. There is a seal with my friend, Gina, and I. We go to a shopping center. We run into Jerry, Deb’s old boyfriend, and his girl friend/wife named Edi. Gina and I then head home. When we get back, I tell Gina I will feed the seal some fruit. Gina has her horse and her house to sell.

What surprised me the most was having a seal in my dream. I don’t think I have ever dreamt of a seal. I think of seals as playful like when I’ve seen shows at a water park. Here again is a Deb reference.

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4/18/25 Large, Brown Snake

Paul finds a very large, medium brown snake with a pattern on its skin. He is a good 15 feet long and 8 inch diameter. He also finds another animal or thing, but I cannot remember what.

At first I think the snake is dead. But then it starts to group longer and longer from the head end. I tell Paul that. I have a cat who turns into a two to three year old Kelsi. I am afraid the snake will eat her. I have something I can feed the snake.

Scene where my family all leave for a vacation but there is not enough room for me. I stay with the snake. I worry the snake will hurt other people, but it doesn’t. EOD

This dream was a bit fuzzy and hard to bring back details. I have not been remembering dreams for a while. Paul and I are recently back from our trip to Winslow and Monument Valley. I didn’t sleep well the night before and got into my OCD thinking about Kevin. I asked Wisdom for what I needed.

In the past Mittens (cat) and Kelsi have represented my soul. Kevin wrote on my birthday another blame and shame text. I responded. This is what I wrote:

Dear Kevin, I am sorry you are so angry at me. I hope some day you can forgive me. I also have been angry at you for cutting me/us off and I work at forgiving you . It seems you want me to admit how wrong I’ve been and I want you to admit how unfair you have been. We have talked many times without catharsis /resolution. I love and care about you as well as your family. And I hope some day we can be reconciled. However, I think we need some help to do this. I suggest finding a neutral, third person, who is experience in mediation to help us. Please have a think about this. (I wrote this on 4/15/25 and have not heard back)

The snake could represent my growth towards self-love.

I worked this dream with Bryn and Susan. Here is what I wrote: If this were my dream, my male/action part of my psyche lets the snake out of some enclosure. It is a medium, brown color-the color of earth and nature. It is very large-larger than a boa. It starts to grow larger. I am not afraid of it hurting me, but I am afraid of it eating Mittens(cat)/young Kelsi-a part of me that is vulnerable. I feed the snake some food that satisfies its hunger. Food is a basic need. Once that is satisfied, other needs can be satisfied. My family goes on a vacation and there is not enough room for me. I am not upset about this. Maybe I need more room for myself right now. I need time to get to know this snake/life force. It is time to do my inner work and not to be distracted from that. I need to get stronger and not so influenced by what others think and to stop doubting myself. I need a balance. I want to integrate my shadow parts, but not give my personal power away.

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4/9/25 Deb Wants to Move Back In

I am with Deb and a few other women. We are in Minneapolis or a similar city. We are walking around the streets. We come to this three story, medium blue apartment building. Deb used to live there. She still has the key. We go into the apartment with her. It is the top floor. We go into a bedroom with three full sized beds and two twin beds. There are small, framed photographs by each bed showing photos of the young women who live there. Deb goes to a phone in the bedroom and calls the landlord. She wants to live here again. The rest of us wander around. I crack open some hard-boiled eggs and put them into cups. The shells don’t come off very well and the yolks are not all the way hard. I ask Deb if she wants a couple of eggs. She says yes.

New scene: We are outside now. Deb owns a small dog. A man asks to borrow her dog and she says yes. I follow him. He and his wife have their car filled as well as the top of the car, with their belongings. They are moving into an apartment nearby. The wife drives a block or so away. I follow them. She parks and gets out with their small dog. The man then gets out with Deb’s dog. I don’t trust that he will return Deb’s dog.

I am guessing that my psyche is trying to tell me something, having all these Deb dreams. I will work this dream today with my dream group and see what materializes!

Here is what I wrote when I worked this dream with my AZ group. If this were my dream, I am with Deb, a part of me that wants to be in a more simple, carefree time in my life. It was also a time when I was more “out in the world”.

I am nurturing this part of me with good nutrition even though the eggs are not coming out of the shell very well and are not quite done. (maybe the nurturing I am doing is not the best? )Eggs can also be a metaphor for new life.

Deb lends a man her dog: her loving, loyal companion. I am afraid he will not return the dog. The dog could be a metaphor for Paul. The man and his wife are moving to a new apartment; a new life but “a part” in some ways, which could represent us moving to a new phase in our lives.

When we shared what we wrote and made the dog-Paul connection, I got emotional.