Author: bonniemitsch

Jeanne and Tom present a children’s play in a small town. However, it is not organized, so no kids as well as any adults come. Tom is dressed colorfully and wears a cap. I don’t remember what Jeanne is wearing. The play takes place outside. Jeanne and Tom move around town presenting the play, even through a tall grass area.

Tom dies. I am not sure how this happens. He is very thin. He is in a box. His adult daughter comes to get him. I start putting wrapping paper over his body. This annoys the daughter. She takes it off. Tom’s body is still warm. The box is closed and taped shut.

Later, Jeanne and I are to meet at a gym to work out.

Day Notes: thinking about Paul and my future. Which house should we sell. Worried we do not have enough money to live on now without taking out from our savings and then thinking we will not have enough in the future.

I am at college in an art class. I sit in the back on the left. I am excited to be here. I don’t understand what the male teacher is saying. An older, male student who sits in front of me finds two papers of mine. He asks if they belong to me and gives them back.

After class, I wander around the college. It has lots of levels with stairs all over. I notice snow outside a window. The school is in California so this seems strange. On one side of the school is a run-down part of the city. I am wearing shorts. I realize I forgot my white brace for my left knee which I have had replaced.

I am in my room. A young, neighbor woman comes and asks to borrow a cup. I pull some from the cupboard and notice they are all dirty. I wash them.

Some scene with about 10 young women dressed in red, Santa outfits. They are walking on a sidewalk with other people. Three of the women get shot by the authorities. I am on the sidewalk as well. I fear for the other women.

A scene where a young man falls from a 2nd level holding a long, wooden pole/stick. He is attempting suicide. It doesn’t work. Someone else, however, did commit suicide.

Feeling: excited about art class. In a daze/lost, but know I will figure the whole school thing out. Sad about the man’s attempt at suicide, and relieved it didn’t work. Fearful for other Santa Claus dressed women.

I am in a clinic. It had moved a few years ago. I didn’t know where it moved until the building in front of it is torn down. When I first moved to town, I went to the old clinic. I walk into the clinic. There is a wood fire burning in a corner to help keep the place warm.

I go and have a massage by a young man. Sheila Asato tells me and a couple of other women to do these exercises using either the yellow or green, rubber, tube like things.

I somehow pick up the doctor’s watch. I find him and return it to him.

I walk around the clinic looking for the yellow or green tubes. They are being used by others. I go into a bathroom where the tubes are usually kept. A nurse or helper is giving a very overweight man a bath. No tubes there.

I run into Sheila and tell her I have made the rounds two times looking for the tubes and there are not any available for use. She says to let it go.

I then go and put more wood on the fire.

(the tubes are about three feet long and may be used on a leg. )