I am letting go of these granite rocks about 10 to 12 inches in diameter. I let go of about seven of them. I pick them up and let them fall away. They are very heavy. This has to do with self-forgiveness. They are no longer part of my name. It is hard work.
It feels like I have two parts of myself and one of these parts is getting ride of these rocks and the other part is not so comfortable doing so.
There are families putting on skits. Some of them are better than others. They are all family orientated. I talk with a little, Asian girl named Chloe. She is visiting some family. There is one skit where a bare-naked, thin, small woman gets on the back of a tall, slim woman dressed in black. The small one pretends she is “humping” the tall one. This makes me very uncomfortable.
My young son about three to four years old is hiding under the ground. He reminds me of Oskar. He comes out and accuses me of something that hurt his feelings. I apologize. He then shows me his art work. It is a drawing which is very good. He also shows me his five lamp shades with lights hanging from the ceiling. Two of them have straw like material on them. He hopes to find three more for the other lights.
A mother and her teenage son are in a stall with a huge steer. He is jumping around and they are controlling him. A small group of people and I are outside of the stall. The door is open. I am standing in front of the group. The steer puts his head out of the door. I push it back. He is brown and white. He has a lot of white on his head. I feel strong and sure of myself.
I am then sitting and painting a picture on a large piece of paper of the stall with the steer kicking his heels up. The stall is on the left of the paper and it shows just the back half of the steer. I then put all these vivid colors onto the paper-no design. I am enjoying doing this very much. When I have covered up most of the paper with the stall and the vivid colors then the background or everywhere except the stall and steer turns into a beautiful night sky with stars and the milky way. I think it looks beautiful.
