Author: Denise

(Sunday morning, April 21, 2013) I am a passenger in a crowded plane. Suddenly we begin a sharp, unexpected descent. We angle into an airport that is in a valley surrounded by mountains. The flight crew gives no indication that this is an emergency landing.

We all disembark at the Abilene airport. I am not sure of my final destination but I know this is not it. I stand with my luggage in the central atrium, which is surrounded by busy stores full of passengers. I don’t see any signage directing me to terminals or gates. I don’t see any signs with flight information. I am panic-stricken and disoriented. Yet all of the other passengers seem to know that the terminal corridors can be reached at the back of the shops.

I look at my ticket/boarding pass. It is in the shape of an hourglass, incised with little rectangular windows. There is an insert I can pull up and down to reveal different information through the windows. Kind of like a slide rule. But I don’t see anything about my connecting flight number or departure time.

I begin to weep uncontrollably. My heart is aching and I feel alone and desperate, a stranger in a strange land.

A man comes up from behind me, at my left shoulder. He is kind, gentle and calm. He asks to look at my ticket. He tells me that my connecting flight leaves at 6 am the next morning and helps me get a room at the hotel across the runway so I can rest.

Day notes:

Both the boarding pass and airport are “X” shaped. “T” and “X” are ancient crosses. They can symbolize the human body, or transformation. “TX”

The little windows in the boarding pass remind me of vertebrate, even in the dream. Pulling the insert up and down is a visual reminder of energy running up and down the spine.

I unexpectedly descend, angle, from the crowded plane (normal existence). I enter a space that is disorienting and without any markers/signs that I can read. I have to rest here, on the ground, before flying further. I have a guide. This dream feels like the kundalini/chi awakening I seem to have fallen into. Although making the commitment to T’ai Chi practice surely is the ticket that I have chosen to purchase, so no accident there …

Ab-i-lene > Ab-i-quiu

A couple of weeks ago I dreamt of having bed-spins. As if I’d been drinking wine, which I had not. But in my dream I admonished myself for imbibing.

Last Wednesday I woke up with intense vertigo. My body, which had been resting peacefully during slumber, turned into a drill bit spinning at full rpm the moment I opened my eyes.

I’d been to T’ai Chi class the night before where I experienced powerful kundalini sensations. A fiery heat burned through my torso and up through the top of my head for several minutes. During the first day of vertigo I would close my eyes and see incredible psychedelic images. I could “trace” how each thought was transformed into a brilliant pattern of color and light.

I was highly anxious about going back to T’ai Chi this week because my balance is still impaired. The lessons take place at the Friends Meeting House, which has beautiful hardwood floors. I feared falling on my head.

It turned out that I was the only student for the 7:30 session. I told Sifu Rob about the vertigo. Before I even brought up the kundalini episode he understood that it was chi (kundalini) which had triggered the vertigo. He explained that my experience is quite normal in T’ai Chi practice. And he said there is a global energy shift going on right now that is affecting many people. He himself had physical sensations the previous night which he had never felt before. He said my personal vibrational shift is causing new pathways to be created in my brain and in my body. It sounds like New Age bullshit till it happens to you.

He found it interesting, and telling, that my body was spinning on the axis of my spine, not as if lying flat on a turntable. The spine is called the plumb-line in T’ai Chi and much of the practice is directed toward keeping the spine “open” to receive energy from earth and sky.

Was my recent dream of “Direct Transmission” precognitive of this private, healing lesson?

(Friday, March 15, 2013) Fragment: I dream I am receiving a “direct transmission” from my T’ai Chi instructor, Sifu Rob. All I see in the dream are his eyes with a kind of spotlight glow around them, à la Bela Lugosi in “Dracula.” But without the spookiness.

Direct transmission = shaktipat

Day notes:

T’ai Chi in ancient China was taught one-on-one, master (sifu) to student, without words. Entrainment.

This is my second dream about T’ai Chi. “Light-body Cannonball Training” was my first. I have been noticing that there is a new strength and energy running along my spine (called “plumb-line” in T’ai Chi) and I can feel all the bones and tendons in my body loosening. They make a crackling sound.

The Tao (yin/yang) symbol looks like eyes. Moon eye and solar eye.

From the web:

Eyes can represent clairvoyance, omniscience, and/or a gateway into the soul. Other qualities that eyes are commonly associated with are: intelligence, light, vigilance, moral conscience, and truth. Looking someone in the eye is a western custom of honesty.

The word “eye” has many meanings, from an organ that detects light to the symbolic eye with its many metaphors that link to conscious awareness. Reality is a consciousness hologram virtually experienced through the eye of time. The physical eye has a pupil symbolizing we are pupils/students in a university or universe. Center of the Milky Way, black hole, hurricane, vortex.