Category: Bonnie

I have a new born baby. I swaddle him and put him near the gas fireplace. I am concerned he is too close, but he is ok.

Then I see him walking outside where there are these animals. One of the animals is a a fawn in bad shape. My baby touches it. There is a white bird that I think is dead, but is not. I can’t remember the other animals. I go out and get my baby. I worry he might get hurt by an animal.

feeling: amazed at the growth, changes in my baby is a short amount of time.

I worked this dream with the Dreamsters. Here is what I wrote and some other notes:

If this were my dream, the bird is my higher, wise Self. The toddler is my inner child-innocent and pure. The dream ego is my waking life ego. That ego is afraid that harm will come to my inner child and feels she has to protect him. This dream says that is not necessary. The first part of the dream is saying to check to see if that nnerchld is too close to the fire-the anger-that would be harmful to him-emotionally, physically, etc. He is not too close. In my waking life, my anger is not as intense as it was re Kevin and Antonia. It is improving. Now it is time to go out in the world with compassion and openness to those who suffer and need nourishment. The question is how to protect myself enough and still show compassion to others-especially wounded others. How to do this with Antonia? I am not sure yet. I may not ever get that opportunity. However, I can do so energetically. I can practice Loving Kindness Meditation and stop the negative thoughts about her.

I went back into this dream and became the white bird. Spirit Bird. I watch my dream ego feed the fawn as well as the other animals with my inner child. This was very healing.

Rowan is talking to me about us having a “card” club together. In waking life, I would often send Markus and him greeting cards. He wants that to start again. I say, I would love that. I see a book and ask if I can read it to him. He says yes.

Some part of the dream where Paul and I are with a couple in their house. They have their bathroom locked. There is a couple who are staying in their basement who are using the bathroom and the couple who own the house doesn’t like it. Paul and I do use the bathroom and use something in it which I cannot remember.

Then it is time to go. I look in my bag which has a lot of stuff and get my wallet. The van is here and we have to go fast. I can’t say goodbye to Rowan and feel bad about that.

I walk to this open, dirt area surrounded by trees. Not far away is an abandoned, light turquoise house as well as a functional, medium sized building. I carry a short snake which I have wrapped in a soft, off-white cloth. I see a short stake where I am to sleep. I let my snake go.

I then see a strong man carrying this beautiful, dark-haired woman who is sleeping. She wears a long, red gown. He lays her down at another sleeping area not far away.

Later, I carry the woman back to her sleeping space and again she is sleeping. When she wakes up, I suggest she sleeps in my space with me for safety and for companionship. She agrees. I am happy.

There are about 10 of us. We are younger, maybe teenagers. We will all sleep in the open, dirt area. And we all had to bring our own snakes with us and let them go out in nature. We meet with a guy in the building not far away who is a bit older and is like a counselor. He tells us he will call our parents after the first day and report on how we are doing. I grab the letters we wrote to our parents and give them to the counselor.

Feeling: excited.

Day Notes: I have been reviewing my dreams from last year and writing down reoccurring symbols. I was not sure which dreams to choose to share on Monday when we meet. I wanted also to share dreams where one was near the beginning of the year, one near the middle and one around now. Having this dream last night settled it. And snakes are a big symbol for me.

I shared my three snake dreams with the Dreamsters. Some ideas were that I was becoming the beautiful woman in red. The color read representing a time for love. I am taking care and keeping company with myself. I don’t have to depend on other like the strong man. On the other hand, I am with about 10 others. I am not dealing with any struggles on my own. We are teenagers. A time when I am developing an ego.

My short snake may represent it has lost its sting, not hurtful to others. Letting my snake go in nature may represent letting my conditioning go. It could also mean letting my ego go. The counselor is a mediator between my parents and me. The veil is thin. There is understanding between us that did the best job they could.

Why do I have snake dreams periodically? They could show up when I feel betrayed. In this dream I let my snake go. This could represent letting that old wound go like I let my snake go. In the dream where I look into the snakes eyes could represent facing this old wound. The three snakes in one dream where two are dead and one alive could represent three lessons. Two snakes are dead. This could represent, two lessons are done. I ask Paul for help with the last snake that is alive. I am dealing with the third lesson and I am asking for help.