Category: Bonnie

I am a young adult. I am with three others: two guys and one girl. We are in Australia. We are staying at the girl’s parents’ house. Her mother is Asian. There is a small dog and cat playing with a stuffed animal.

I stay in the house and the other three young adults walk to a store. I write a check and ask one of the guys to cash it at the store. I write on the check that I am a friend of the family. The store is a small, neighborhood store.

When they come back to the house I find out that one of the guys was caught in a lie at the store. He said he was from California. The owner of the store does not believe him. He asks him some questions like what is the price of milk and other items. The guy is telling me the story. He is a braggart.

We then all go to church with the parents. When the service is over, everyone starts to leave. I know that Ted Middleton is in the church, though I do not see him. The two guys and girl get into the car. They are going to drive to California. I decide not to go. I start walking back to the church. I do not know what I am going to do.

Feeling: comfortable with my decision. A bit nervous about the future.

Incubation: What is one thing that will help me own my power in a healthy way for the benefit of myself and others?

Daynotes: Paul and I are working on a mesquite backboard for our bed. I got upset on how it is turning out. The black resin and turquoise is not what I imagined. Then Paul got into wanting to have it done right away and that triggered me. I had a cry and listened to an “acceptance” meditation. I have some perfectionism and want to do it right. Paul is more half ass about it. It hasn’t felt like we are playing together!

I am teaching something; maybe a dream group. Deb has done something that disturbs me. I tell her to leave. She won’t. I tell her to leave a few times and she still will not. Feeling: Angry

I incubated a dream with the request: What is one thing that will help me be honest and kind to Paul related to his dementia. I have continued to modify my request. My latest is: What is one thing that will help me own my power in a healthy way? (not just with Paul, but others)

I had my dream group from AZ on the 11th. Barbara is one of the new members and she was the dreamer. She wants to make comments on people’s dreams or what they have shared. She asked if she could make a comment and I said yes. (not a good idea!!) Then it “got out of control” and became more of a free for all-people making suggestions, sharing stories, etc. Very ungrounded. And this bothered me. I realized I need to remind people more than I do of how I do dream work.

After this dream, I pulled a tarot card asking what Deb represented. I pulled the knight of wands which fits Deb perfectly-high energy, adventurous, likes to travel, etc. (similar energy to Barbara) So, then I wondered if my ego is fighting that kind of energy and wants to be in control. I don’t know. I just know, to me, it didn’t feel good during and after the dream group!

The next night when I incubated a dream asking for how to be honest with Paul re his dementia, I got words that said; “Play together!” That was a good suggestion. I have been conscious about that and have been “lighter”.

1. I am with Bob and Renee. We are listening to some lecture and taking notes. Afterwards, I look at Bob’s notes, thinking I missed something, but I didn’t. It is then time for them to leave.

2. I am getting this large room in my house ready for daycare. I am going to start my own daycare. I am cleaning it up and putting things away. I am about to go out and buy some toys. I am nervous and excited. There will be 4-5 kids, ages 2-4 years old.