Category: Denise

(Monday, June 30, 2025) waxing crescent moon Virgo / tarot page of wands / oracle Delight

Still many interruptions in my sleep, but dreams nonetheless. The interruptions make remembering the dreams tougher.

In the middle of the night I had this fragment: my bedroom is back upstairs, as it was in the first five years I lived on Rustic Lodge. I am lying on the kingsize bed, on my back. Next to me, on my left, is a woman who is also lying on her back. That woman is me. There are two of us, two “me” dreamers resting on the bed.

Daynotes:

Yesterday Cullan and I rode our bikes downtown to the Pride parade. We ended up standing just a block away from the building where my friends Howie and Jana started the business “Smart Set.” I would often visit or freelance there. Howie was gay and Jewish. Years ago he went out for dinner and a man he met at the restaurant Cafe Wyrd, now called Barbette, murdered him at his condo on Lyndale. The parade made me cry, thinking of Howie and also of the cruel experiences the LGBTQ community must endure. Governor Walz was in the parade and we all cheered as loud as we could.

(Thursday, June 26, 2025) new moon Cancer / tarot Tower / oracle Creativity

I slept well last night and had long dreqms. The one I remember best: I am on a trip to visit my mother-in-law Kay. Nature is everywhere but I think I am in Chicago. Sister-in-law Kathy lives with Mama Kay (what we called her). My white kitty (whom I often call My Angel) is prowling around in Kay’s house. A lot of details have evaporated. There is a co-op of some sort I need to visit but I am told it has closed. I need to find a new, nearby co-op to use until the other is remodeled and open again.

Day notes:

There are no co-ops in Illinois, mostly in Minnesota and California. Cullan and I are considering becoming members of Lakewinds.

I am thinking about creating a trust for Cullan. There are advantages if Chris and I end up in nursing homes but disadvantages for property taxes, as the state pays half of our yearly property taxes (I think of that as co-operation). Kay created a trust for Chris because she was worried about his medical issues.

We have not been in contact with Kathy in years. I wonder if this dream tells me she has dementia. Her aunt Jo had it and so did Kay.

(Tuesday, June 24, 2025) new moon Gemini / tarot Sun / oracle Deep Listening

I dream I am working on a very tall, vertical ladder made of sweetgrass, woven on a black iron frame. The steps look like braided baskets. Many people have joined this interior space with me. I finish by coloring each side of the ladder a slightly different hue, perhaps light grey and white. The pigments are not paint, but dye.

I am ready to climb. I make a small joke about being Canadian, like Garrison Keeler kidded us years ago, saying people from Minnesota are Canadians. The ladder’s straw is petite, but I can still step up safely without bending or twisting the sweetgrass.

Daynotes:

I am reminded of Georgia O’Keefe’s painting “Ladder to the Moon.”

I went grocery shopping at Lakewinds today (senior day) and saw the book “Braiding Sweetgrass.”

This morning my father told my brother he will be passing soon. The word “dye” reminds me of “die.”

I had a conversation with Cullan on Sunday. He is reading a book about caregiving for loved ones with dementia. He wants to make sure we travel to Ireland next year, and other trips. I told him how friendly the Canadians were when I visited Vancouver with Bonnie and Jeanne.