I am doing research that I enjoy. I go and talk to a teacher (high school?). I want his students to help collect data. The teacher wants to study “the Bad Seed” (from Hillman’s book-I am reading the chapter on evil people). my research is focused on the positive and I want to continue to do that.
Scene with kathleen. She carries a large box of chocolate donuts. Later she is in a restaurant booth saying that she is pregnant and is worried about that.
Scene where there is a small group of kids around 12 years old doing exercises outside. One is a boy with Down Syndrome. He is jumping rope. He is in good shape. Later, he is in a baby carriage and someone is pushing it.
(confusing dream and hard to bring back to this reality)
Trip to Disneyland
Paul and I are taking a trip to Disneyland. We are to fly the first leg of the trip. We are with lots of young families with children. We are all lined up before going on the plane. I don’t have a boarding pass which makes me nervous, but there is no problem; I am allowed on the plane.
We then wait at the airport for the second leg of the trip. I am nervous because I don’t have a boarding pass for this leg either. Paul and I are buying things-aspirin, etc. at a self-service check-out. I ask him to finish checking out.
I go to the next room to get a pass. The room is very formal. There are about 10 women in the room. They are all dressed in black dresses-also formal. I ask a woman about getting a pass. She says yes and to wait in this side room. My friend, Deb, is there with a few others. We all talk.
I get nervous again and go ask another woman about a pass. She finds the first woman and yells at her. She (the first woman) then gets me the pass. I am in seat 6 and the plane lands at 3 a.m.
There is a scene where I am waiting to go. I sit in a dog sled. It is dark. The owner of the sled’s dog sits on it also. He buries his snout under my left thigh. It is very uncomfortable. I keep pushing him away and he keeps putting it back! Paul comes and I tell him about it.
Last scene: We are flying low in the plane. We must be close to the airport. We are flying where the ocean meets the shore. We see a huge whale swimming in and out of the water. The ocean and rocks are beautiful. It is a beautiful, sunny day. There is more life in the ocean as well- dolphins? It is glorious.
Feelings: Nervous, fascinated by the kids, happy at the end
Parent Couple and Child Couple of Color
(Friday, August 4, 2022)
In the dream, I am lying in bed with my spouse Chris. Perhaps we are sleeping in a hotel, or in a large apartment complex, because I crawl out of bed and walk through the bedroom door to a large locker room.
I am naked, at least from the top. I cover my breasts with my arms and open a locker to grab a bra, underwear and daytime clothes. It’s early enough in the day that the locker room is empty of other people, although I hear them speaking in connected rooms.
When we are both dressed, we head out to our car with our two children. It is at this point of the dream that I realize we are African American. The children are small, one boy and one girl. The vehicle is old but functional, all we can afford. Perhaps we live in low income, subsidized housing. The back seat of the car is folded down, and the children lie flat. I have some anxiety about their safety, so I don’t want them to be visible. I love them.
When I wake up from the dream, it feels like a past life that Chris and I shared. Or a life that is somehow connected to this one, but very different.