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A group of us put a bomb in a machine outdoors. It goes off but does not destroy the part of the machine we intended. We go back inside this building and lock the door. The door can open and close on either side. The right side (from inside) locks ok. The left side doesn’t. A couple from the outside start to open the door and we have to re-lock it.

Feeling: a bit nervous, but really more excited.

1. I am shooting myself in the foot and a couple other places. I was going to shoot myself in the head, but realize I will die and decide not to do so. The shots do not hurt. A scene where I am sitting with two women. I am on a toilet trying to go BM.
2. I am petting some horses. Some of them are laying down. There are some city boys who are riding horses. The cousins (my kids generation) from my family are around. Freya is there and she is walking. The building we are all in was to be blown up. I am with the guys who would do so. However, it is decided not to do so. It is a happy party and everyone is having a good time.

I think shooting myself is a wakeup call about hurting myself through letting the situation with Kevin get the better of me.

I go to visit Kevin and Antonia in India. I am there for a few days. It is OK. Antonia is stand-offish and Kevin is lukewarm. I am to go to two other places, but I forgot my itinerary. I decide to skip the 2nd place which was for three days and go to the 3rd place. I know the place starts with an M and has pyramids. There is a man there who knows the name.

Feeling: accepting to what is.

This dream could be a reminder that my itinerary is to take care of myself. And I have forgotten it.