(Saturday, November 8, 2014) Waning gibbous moon in Gemini / three of swords reversed
Dreams dreams dreams!
In the first dream I am with a group of coworkers. We are socializing outdoors. I have the sensation of someone trying to grab my attention. I look up momentarily to meet the gaze of Mitch Jones from the Phoenix office (!). Mitch is an extraordinary human being on many levels: he is handsome enough to make a GQ cover, he is fit, gentle, and extremely intelligent (he works in the IS – Information Services – department). He is holding his beautiful toddler daughter in his arms. I look away almost immediately: I am older than he is and feel unworthy.
The dream progresses to another location. Again I am in a group of coworkers. Again Mitch tries to make eye contact with me. This time he is holding his infant son. I look into his eyes briefly but then cast my eyes down again. I think it is impossible that he wants a relationship with me. Because I am a sensitive, I feel his frustration, which is not an emotion I have ever perceived in him.
In the next dream, I am holding a toy boat made of aluminum. It’s a power boat, maybe a foot-and-a-half in length. A group of us from the IASD are standing at the waterfront along San Francisco Bay in the middle of the night. I recognize Richard Wilkerson and the red-haired British woman I met in Kerkrade who now has her PhD. Richard looks trimmer than the last time I saw him.
The black water of the harbor is full of boats but I want to ride in my tiny powerboat. I’m not afraid. I shrink my physical body until I am small enough to fit in the toy, and zip around on the tall, cold waves.
In the third dream I am with the IASD again. I am not a researcher, not a healer, not a professional artist or writer. Still I feel a great sense of joy in being at the meeting. I love to dream. I love to dance. The dream ends with us all dancing happily at the dream ball.
Day notes:
On Saturday, November 15, I visited Marlene Delott for a tarot reading. I had dreamt of her so I called and made an appointment. Much of what she said is reflected in this dream series.
Marlene asked for questions in advance. I am still struggling in my T’ai-Chi class, so I asked her if I am benefitting, if I should continue. Her answer was a mirror of my Mitch dream. She saw an “energy connection” between me and my teacher (who is at least ten years younger than I am, works for the Fed as an economist, is very fit and good-looking). On my side the connection feels sexual and spiritual. She did not define the connection from his side but said that he has been frustrated in his emotional relationships. She said he is a very nurturing teacher and I should definitely continue my instruction.
She said my experience in Santa Fe “filled me up” and that I will, at some point in the future, help others with past-life dreamwork. I found this very surprising as I have no inclination at the present moment to do that. I thought of Bonnie’s foxy comment, “I don’t need no letters after my name – I navigate the unconscious just fine!”
I like that Mitch is from Phoenix (like the bird?)There is the male/female in the dream with the two toddlers, Richard and the red haired women, Denise and Mitsch. In my dream I am integrating them.
The small motor boat is mine. It may be small, but it is mine and I do just fine in the waves. (I don’t need no letters after my name – I navigate the unconscious just fine)