(Saturday, June 28, 2014) New moon in Cancer on June 27. My nights and mornings have been full of dreaming. I awaken with the sense of having done lots of good work but without complete memories of the dreams themselves.
Except this fragment: “My death is approaching soon.” I don’t know if I hear a voice proclaim this or if the message presents itself as a new awareness. When I awaken I interpret the statement to be what Nigel Hamilton calls Mortificatio. Death preceding birth to a new plane of spiritual understanding. I am excited and feel grateful. But as the day wears on I am unsure. Is it my death? Or is a (forgotten) dream character telling me about their imminent death? Chris has been complaining of back pain and that resurrects fears in me about his heart.
Our owl has been calling from the pine tree near my bedroom window for the past couple of nights.