Fragment: Not a Volunteer

(Thursday, March 24, 2016) moon: full in Libra (lunar eclipse yesterday) / tarot: seven of wands

I arrive at the IASD conference registration desk in Kerkrade, Netherlands. The desk is set up outdoors, overlooking an ocean harbor, and is made of four long tables that form a square.

One of the IASD members working behind the desk, inside the square, hands me a schedule. I look through the pages and am upset to discover that I am committed to work as an AV volunteer for many hours each day, so many hours that there is little time left over to attend the conference workshops and presentations. I hand the paperwork back to the registration worker, explaining to him that I did not sign up as a volunteer this time. He insists that I must work. If I do not, it will affect many sessions of the conference, because this year there is a shortage of volunteers. He even calls Richard Wilkerson over to confirm the story.

The dream is much longer, but the rest has faded from my memory.

Day notes:

Yesterday I sent Sem in Amersfoort an email about the terror attacks in Brussels. Brussels is just two hours from Amsterdam. I told him I was sorry that travel, which is a huge part of his job, has become so dangerous in northern Europe.

Of course this dream reflects how relentlessly busy I am at my job. No time for those things that I find personally fulfilling. Too distracted even to dream.

Monday Chris turned on his computer so we could watch a DVD. For some reason, the computer launched his screen saver, which ran through the photos Bonnie took at Rolduc Abbey in 2011. Kind of odd.

One Reply to “Fragment: Not a Volunteer”

  1. Very interesting about the photos from 2011. I would feel like “everything is against me!” re getting to the conference which I want to do and then having to work and not go to classes I want to go to! Kind of like a “tease”. If I could I would kidnap you and take you to the conference!
    I just signed up for monitoring for volunteering. I could choose my top three and then six others. I won’t get everything I want, but this is much better than having to monitor so many things I am not interested in.
    My sister was in Belgium during the attack. She said she is flying home from Amsterdam today. Had to take a taxi there. I don’t know any details.

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