Fragment: Dreaming Of Paul On Bonnie’s Birthday

(Monday, April 14, 2025) waning gibbous moon Scorpio / tarot seven of wands

I dream of a long conversation with Paul, Bonnie’s spouse, about dementia, his experience with Alzheimer’s, although in waking life he does not talk about it, at least with me. The dream is vague enough that when I wake up, I am not sure if we are talking in person or if I am entering his mind. A telepathic discussion.

Day notes:

I discovered this morning that my flying lucid dream had a prescient element at the end. I think the young dream girl from many decades ago is the actual woman who was going to build a mansion around 1885. She wanted to call it Rustic Lodge. She owned 20 acres, between 48th and 49th Avenues, and Pleasant and Stevens. Right by my present house and by the house Paul grew up in. Later she thought of having the house built in Hollywood instead, but it never happened.

I have Mayo appointments this Thursday and next Tuesday. On Tuesday I meet a new doctor to discuss genomes and semantic dementia.

4/9/25 Deb Wants to Move Back In

I am with Deb and a few other women. We are in Minneapolis or a similar city. We are walking around the streets. We come to this three story, medium blue apartment building. Deb used to live there. She still has the key. We go into the apartment with her. It is the top floor. We go into a bedroom with three full sized beds and two twin beds. There are small, framed photographs by each bed showing photos of the young women who live there. Deb goes to a phone in the bedroom and calls the landlord. She wants to live here again. The rest of us wander around. I crack open some hard-boiled eggs and put them into cups. The shells don’t come off very well and the yolks are not all the way hard. I ask Deb if she wants a couple of eggs. She says yes.

New scene: We are outside now. Deb owns a small dog. A man asks to borrow her dog and she says yes. I follow him. He and his wife have their car filled as well as the top of the car, with their belongings. They are moving into an apartment nearby. The wife drives a block or so away. I follow them. She parks and gets out with their small dog. The man then gets out with Deb’s dog. I don’t trust that he will return Deb’s dog.

I am guessing that my psyche is trying to tell me something, having all these Deb dreams. I will work this dream today with my dream group and see what materializes!

Here is what I wrote when I worked this dream with my AZ group. If this were my dream, I am with Deb, a part of me that wants to be in a more simple, carefree time in my life. It was also a time when I was more “out in the world”.

I am nurturing this part of me with good nutrition even though the eggs are not coming out of the shell very well and are not quite done. (maybe the nurturing I am doing is not the best? )Eggs can also be a metaphor for new life.

Deb lends a man her dog: her loving, loyal companion. I am afraid he will not return the dog. The dog could be a metaphor for Paul. The man and his wife are moving to a new apartment; a new life but “a part” in some ways, which could represent us moving to a new phase in our lives.

When we shared what we wrote and made the dog-Paul connection, I got emotional.

4/5/25 Skate Skiing

I am with Deb and another woman who is young. We are skiing. I take off before the young woman to get a lead because the young woman will catch up to me easily. I feel great skiing. It is very visceral. (in waking life I never tried skate skiing. I used to go cross country skiing with Deb years ago at French Park)

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