(Saturday, June 1, 2024) waning crescent moon Aries / tarot Magician
I woke up this morning at about 3:00am with horrible sleep paralysis. It would take several minutes to move parts of my body and pull out of it, but then I would fall directly back into the freeze. The whole experience lasted about an hour-and-a-half. Thankfully it included no nightmares, no visions of ghosts, monsters or aliens. It made me very tired for most of the day.
I am in a Mall. I am having my hair done or finishing some shopping. Kevin and his Muslim friend are waiting for me on a bench out in the center of the mall. They are sleeping. They are in their late teens. I wake them up. I say to Kevin, “It is your birthday. How about we go and you pick out some clothes for your birthday?” He is for it. The three of us walk to a clothes store. I talk with Kevin about his job. I suggest he finds one he wants to go to every day. Feeling: happy
If this were my dream I am in a mall finishing up with something. I have been “malled” by Kevin and Antonia who cut me off 7 months ago. Hair cut/styled- new way of thinking? I go out and wake up Kevin and his Muslim friend. Muslims seem to be pretty “rigid” with praying five times a day. However, the Muslim religion is “love” based. In waking life I pray that Kevin will “wake up” to what has happened to him. I feel he sees me and life through Antonia’s eyes and has lost who he is. It is Kevin’s birthday-new life/starting over? I suggest getting new clothes-a new identity. His friend comes along with us. Does he represent Antonia? Does she see how she is hurting Kevin? I suggest Kevin find a job where he wants to go to every day. Maybe this symbolizes doing things in his life that make him feel happy; thinking about himself more and what he needs, not just Antonia, Rowan and Markus.
I can see this beautiful beach with clean sand and gentle waves either in my mind’s eye or for real. For some reason, I cannot cross the bridge to get to the beach by myself. I am with another woman ( very vague; I just sense her presence). I keep trying to talk this man in his 70’s into taking us to the beach. It takes a lot to talk him into it. He is sitting on a bench with another man, just chilling. The setting feels like an outdoor market with lots of people. It feels a bit trashed out. I see a young woman go up to a booth, lay out her wares and try to sell them. She is very focused.
The man says we have to eat first. We stop at a restaurant. The man is eating some kind of meat. It could be chunks of fish. We have to go over this long, ornate, deep red bridge to get to the beach. Somehow going to the beach is risky. I picture the beach being pristine, no people and nice and warm.
If this were my dream…I am in an atmosphere that is not settled/a busy kind of place. At home in waking life, I have a list of things to accomplish. I am like the young sales woman. She is driven, not in the moment/present. I am with my anima that needs more calm and peace. We go to a man who is laid back-my animus. He will take us over the bridge to the pristine beach. He is a part of me that I need right now. I can drive myself sometimes too much and don’t take time to smell the roses. He says we need to eat first. We need nourishment-a basic need and a good way to ground. The dream ends while we are eating. The beach is a bit risky. It is risky because it is a place to just be; not a place to accomplish things. I think my dreamer is telling me to slow down and to be in the moment more. I am in transition now (AZ to MN) which is symbolized by the bridge. I need to bring my laid back part into the picture more. The bridge being being red and decorative makes me think creativity is important and to get out and enjoy myself more.
