I am with Chris at some foreign place. She brings me a wreath and a wooden mask. They were in our mailbox at the hotel we are staying at. I cannot read the name of who they are from. Chris is mad at me. She feels I was passive and not engaged with whoever I was with earlier and she doesn’t want me to be that way with her. I feel that is not right or fair. But then I have second doubts. Maybe I was passive.
Argy Bargy
(Sunday, February 16, 2025) waining gibbous moon Libra
I am in Lowertown (the St. Paul neighborhood where my old art studio was and where Chris and I first lived together). I am sitting in a brick building next to the river with my former coworker Alysia (who lives in Arizona) and another female employee of Ergotron who was hired after I was laid off.
Alysia has a different job now, not design work (which is true). She is a manager. The other woman is also a manager. I chat a little about the past functions of my old employer, mentioning our former boss Louis. The new woman ignores my perspective. She thinks the company is in much smarter shape, which I don’t.
Alysia and I plan to go to a theatre to watch a local play. I mention to her how Minneapolis is very active in that art-form, saying there are at least twenty or thirty small acting companies. She hasn’t been to Minnesota for a long time, and I plan to show her around. Before we go, I head to the office bathroom, which isn’t working right, so I skip it and walk back into the meeting room where Alysia is waiting for us to leave together. Outside, I notice a huge iron barge moving along the river from the south, toward Minneapolis.
Day notes:
Culllan and Hillary had a calm and loving conversation yesterday, via a phone text.
Ergotron is in Eagan, a St. Paul suburb near the river. I helped train Alysia in the design process for many years. I was her manager.
The Port of Minneapolis is the final place where a barge can travel. Last Sunday Cullan and I drove along Highway 61 and the Mississippi to get to Rochester. We saw at least fifty bald eagles. During my childhood we would waterski on Lake Pepin and barges would often make huge waves that would nearly topple us.
Barge (Oxford dictionary)
noun: a flat-bottomed boat for carrying freight, typically on canals and rivers, either under its own power or towed by another.
verb: move forcefully or roughly.
2/3/25 Denise Comes to Visit
Denise has come to visit. I was not expecting her. We are standing outside. All of a sudden, Denise’s right shoulder blade spontaneously catches on fire. I push her to the ground and get the fire out.
Dave and Marsha are at my house (not waking life). Denise and I are inside with them. I have a hard time introducing them to each other because I am having trouble remembering their names! I do remember, but it takes a while. Dave has slept in the basement bedroom that does not have a roof over it. That is where Denise will sleep.
I tell Denise that Paul and I are going to buy a new house. I tell her about the garage that is huge with a dirt floor and no roof. I see it in my mind’s eye.
Day notes: starting to copy VHS’s to DVD’s. These are old movies and they bring up memories of old times.
I worked on this dream with Kathleen and Shaney. This is what I wrote: If this were my dream, a part of me that Denise represents has come to visit unexpectedly. Maybe it is a part of me I am not that well acquainted with or forgot about. Her right shoulder blade spontaneously combusts. This freaks me out. I push her to the ground to put it out. This could be a positive image- something to do with creativity? I think of the shoulder blades as being expressive especially when I see an animal like a cat move-similar to a dance move. The right side could have to do with the future. Maybe it is something I am not ready for? (to have my memories changed?) Dave and Marsha-trouble with my memory. Dave stays in the basement bedroom without a roof. There is no protection from the elements. However, the room is open to the sky. The roof could represent memory. Dave could represent masculine energy-the action principal. Denise could represent feminine energy. That energy is also going to experience the no roof bedroom. Paul and I are to move to a new house with a large, tall garage with no roof and a dirt floor. It is empty. So, if this has to do with memory, maybe it is an opportunity to revisit my old memories with the realization they can be changed or reinterpreted. Looking at these DVD;s is bringing back the time in my life a good 38-39 years ago. Maybe, they will help me bring back more positive memories especially any self-criticism.
Ideas from Kathleen and Shaney. A garage could represent memory because it is a place where things are stored. Memories can be malleable. The song: Happy Like a Room without a Roof by Pharrell Williams.