Up To Snuff

(Friday, September 27, 2024) waning crescent moon Leo / tarot Hierophant

I head up to the top of a skyscraper for my job. The window-filled office is empty, surprising to me, but I sit down to get to work. A woman makes a phone call to me, the CEO or owner, and tells me I am let go. This fills me full of grief and I cry many tears as I walk down the tower.

I wander around for a while, and then enter another building, which is just a few stories. A place to live, perhaps an apartment or hotel. I feel like the owner here. There are professional painters working in many of the rooms. I join them and work on some spackling and sanding. The painting manager arrives to inspect the quality of the painting. He feels like a spirit guide. I ask him how I am doing. He sees that I am careful and precise. Up to snuff.

Journal: Electricity

(Saturday, September 21, 2024) moon waning gibbous Taurus / tarot three of cups

Certainly today was the three of cups. I got to go to The Bakken Museum with Cullan, Wyn and Oona. It is a beautiful, historic stone castle, full of games and STEM education programs for children. The volunteers are kind and very informative.

I was a bit shocked when we walked up the third-story stairs and entered the Ben Franklin exhibit. In the “Electricity Party Room,” children can play with remakes of his original experiments. It all reminded me of my old lucid Ben Franklin dream that I shared with Dr. Sabina Lucas. She said many people think they have past lives as famous people but actually do not. She did a reading using my signature and Ben’s signature. She told me my Ben dream was true, that he is my past. I really do not feel any kind of waking connection to him, in spite of her interpretation.

9/20/24 Shooting Myself and Not Blowing up a Building

  1. I am shooting myself in the foot and a couple other places. I was going to shoot myself in the head, but realize I will die and decide not to do so. The shots do not hurt. A scene where I am sitting with two women. I am on a toilet trying to go BM.
  2. I am petting some horses. Some of them are laying down. There are some city boys who are riding horses. The cousins (my kids generation) from my family are around. Freya is there and she is walking. The building we are all in was to be blown up. I am with the guys who would do so. However, it is decided not to do so. It is a happy party and everyone is having a good time.

I think shooting myself is a wakeup call about hurting myself through letting the situation with Kevin get the better of me.

The Dreamsters Union