(Thursday, September 20, 2018) waxing gibbous Aquarius / tarot Chariot
I am in the driver’s seat of a car parked near the entrance to a tall healthcare facility. I shift into reverse, backing the vehicle alongside and even over the top of cement walkways. Parallel parking. Then I shift forward and drive to another multistory facility in the same complex, parking safely in the lot.
I enter the building lobby. Cullan joins me. We take the elevator up to the surgery floor. I hold a large gauze pad over my throat, symbolizing the need for tissue to be removed from my thyroid.
Day notes:
I have been experiencing heart palpitations since I was told Alysia in Phoenix might be let go. Today it was even worse. I felt several sharp pains on the left side of my chest, so I went to have an EKG at the Allina West Health emergency facility. A wonderful, kind doctor told me I have premature ventricular contractions (PVC). It can be caused by stress. It is “benign” and does not lead to more serious cardiovascular conditions, unless it worsens. He looked at my records and commented that I had not had my thyroid nodule examined since 2015. I told him that was my decision because it has tested as normal for nearly 20 years. I asked the ER physician if my PVC could be caused by hormonal disruption. He doubted that it would be.
Tonight the physical sensation of my beating heart is very strong.
The Chariot card seems related to this dream. Chariot is often about career, and the horses/sphinxes pull in opposite directions, like my erratic heart chambers.
Interesting dream. I am curious about going backwards or in reverse and then forward again. It reminds me of the “Two steps backwards and one step forward.” Maybe the two towers are like two choices.
How is your thyroid related to your heart? Or if it is a metaphor, what is blocking your voice? I just looked up the symbolism and it says that the thyroid stores hormones that help regulate the heart rate, etc. Then Louise Hay says that you are not allowing yourself to do what you truly want to do. Also that you may not be honoring your psychic abilities and intuition.
I am glad you are in the drivers seat and that Cullan meets you in the health care facility.
Bingo, Dream Queen. I am not doing what I want, although I have my studio fully prepped for my next project, which begins after our retreat. I have parathyroid abnormalities. I did ask the doctor about thyroid and heart. If this doesn’t calm down, I’ll go back to an endocrinologist. I feel like ALL I care about in life is Mystic Me!
I drove by West Health on my way to yoga this morning at Crowne Plaza. West Health has two separate facilities, connected by a parking lot, just like my dream. Each also has a glass tower atrium. My endocrinologist’s office is at West Health too. Prescient elements that didn’t connect with my brain until today.