I am at my place (not waking life). I am alone at first. I take down this light, tan screen that hangs across the side of my front yard. It needs a new light bulb. Later I see it is on the road on that side. I presume the wind moved it. Then I notice the screen on the left side of my yard blew or fell down by accident.
My cousin, Jill, comes. (in waking life Jill died 10 years ago). She is to help me. First we both go to the bathroom. She takes her three pieces of jewelry off before going to the bathroom and is now putting them back on. They are all turquoise pieces. One is a bracelet, one is a piece that fits on her elbow and the third piece I cannot remember.
It is cold. I can’t find my hat. I pull up my hood. I look for the light bulbs, but cannot find them. Then I find a hat and put that on. I decide to put up the screens and worry about the light bulbs later.
Some scene where I am sitting outside and it is nice weather. I hold a bag of three fish; ones I caught. One is large and two are small (walleyes?). I woman is there with me. We sit on the ground in the front yard. (same yard as above). She says something about the fish. I say they are almost too small for Paul to bother filleting them. Next scene, I am eating the cooked fish.
Feeling: overwhelmed re putting up the screens. Fish scene-relaxed.
Incubation question: What is ready to be healed?
This is what I wrote after working the dream with the Dreamsters:
If this were my dream, I am comfortable in my life. I feel I have good boundaries (both the screens are up). However, there is a light bulb missing (some understanding/enlightenment) on the right screen-the masculine side. I need to let down my boundary to figure out what it is. Then the left screen-feminine, falls down on its own. Jill can help me. She cares about me. She wears three pieces of turquoise jewelry. Turquoise jewelry can predict danger. We both go to the bathroom. We need to let go of what no longer serves us. Jill then puts the jewelry back on. The turquoise jewelry can also represent protection. Maybe that is what she is telling me: I need more protection. Wanting to find a hat and finally doing so represents protecting myself from negative thoughts which I have when I get angry at Kevin and Antonia. I have OCD thoughts where I tell them off. I decide to raise my boundaries (screens)/protection and let go of ideas of how to fix the situation (light bulb). When I do, a feminine guide is there as well as my masculine energy (Paul who will fillet the fish). The three fish represent Mind, Body and Spirit-wholeness/balance. I cook and eat the fish. It is a healing.
Ideas from the Dreamsters: There are 12 light bulbs and only one is burned out. Focus on the eleven! The cold weather in the dream could represent the cold relationship between Kevin and I. It is important for me to put up boundaries. He doesn’t have good personal boundaries himself. I can use my feminine strengths (left screen) just so much-it gets overloaded and falls down. I need my masculine boundaries. I am missing something (an enlightened part), but it is not time to deal with this. Creativity (Jill and I took photos together) is a good path to follow for healing.
“If this were my dream:”
In this dream, I am at my core. Boundaries are to my right and left, the masculine and feminine sides, but they are not true and permanent protectors. This is my front yard, my external appearance to others.
Three gems, three underwater creatures, are gifts from the feminine, including Jill and my spirit guide. I have connections to cleansing and sustenance. Transformation.
What feel like shifts in my environment (we sometimes call it climate) aggravate my nerves and my sense of being without protection. But my crown is covered. Illumination, deep spiritual experiences, are on their way.