(I am an observer). A gay man brings red roses to another gay man. The man who brought the roses is just accepting that he is gay. The two men have sex.
Now I am in the house. I go to the kitchen the next morning. There are the two gay men and two other gay men there. I am the only woman. I feel a bit uncomfortable and out of place.
I go to the bedroom and start to make the bed. Now the man who brought the roses and an older woman (40 years?) who is dating one of the men, is there with me. She asks the man about his relationship with his mother. There has been strife related to his gayness. I just listen.
As I make the bed, I find some of the roses have fallen below the headboard. I pull them out and get pricked.
I talk with the woman who says she is much older then the guy she is dating. She hasn’t met his parents yet and worries about this. Then it is Kevin she is dating. Kevin and I are now in a car driving west. It is dark when we get into San Francisco. The drive went fast. I tell Kevin I like the older woman he is dating. Kevin is not real friendly, but not cold.
A scene: The guy who lives at the house goes out to get something from his car. He is nude. He doesn’t want to be seen by the neighbors. (I am him and also an observer)
A scene: There is a scene where a tree is thinned out. I see a medium sized black and white bird. Then I see a nest with lots of small baby birds. I point this out to someone. Then there are lots of mother birds (15-20) and lots of babies. I am excited. Someone takes a photo and I do also.
I worked this dream with Susan and Bryn. This is what I wrote as well as some comments from Susan and Bryn: If this were my dream, the man with the roses is accepting who he is, his authenticity. Red roses =love; maybe self love. Having sex-the bringing together a part of myself and integrating it. Maybe that part knows her true self!
In the kitchen-a place of transformation/alchemy, where food is cooked; changed so it can be digested. Also the heart of the house. There are four gay men-masculine and feminine energy that is balanced. I am still not comfortable with this part of myself (I am out of balance)
I go to the bedroom, an intimate part of self. I make the bed. a sign of integration. (You’ve made your bed and now you have to lay in it!) I get pricked by the roses. (like Snow White-a warning /to struggle for my character-my higher self) ( Sleeping Beauty: Love can wake me up) Now I listen to the part of me that had my own issues with my mother. I didn’t feel I could connect authentically with her. I felt I had to be a caregiver.
The older woman (40 years old). Four men in the kitchen and 4 plus 0 = 4) Four can mean that there are organizing forces at work). She is worried because she hasn’t met her boyfriend’s parents. Now her boyfriend is Kevin. Kevin is 40 years old. Maybe there are organizing forces in his life. II drive west with Kevin. We are coming to an ending. San Francisco is a liberal city with a Golden Gate. I let Kevin know I like his authentic self.
The part where I am nude…What am I afraid of being exposed. There is also the question of what was I getting from my car? What do I need to get around in life?
Mother Birds and babies: Am I trimming away what I no longer need? (my protectors?) By dong so there is a lot of potential (baby birds). Black and white birds: bringing conscious and unconscious together? Or no longer seeing life in black and white-I am integrating life.