I am at a conference. Bruce, Ardy, Chris and Dan are there. I make love to Bruce a few times. (Bruce is in his early 80’s and is the president of our Association in Walker. He volunteers a lot in town and is quite Hardy for his age-definitely no sexual attraction!!) I am younger than in waking life-maybe in my 50’s. The sex feels good. I feel bad, though, and decide to put an end to it because Ardy, Bruce’s wife, would be hurt by us having sex. Bruce would keep doing it.
I notice two men at the hotel/conference center. They are gay. One guy dresses in a suit. The other dresses in street clothes. They pass each other periodically and say hi. They have to keep their relationship hidden.
I see Chris. She tells me the day before she took her class outside to sunbathe. It was a beautiful day. Later Dan is there and he says he also took his class out to sunbathe. They used these short ropes and small nails to tighten the ropes for the people to use when sunbathing. Dan helps me with my rope and nails. I am not sure why I am doing this, but think I must have a class and will take them sunbathing.
Scene: I am leaving my hotel room and needing to lock the door with a key. I can’t lock the door from the inside like it should.
Scene: There is a four year old boy. His dad puts him on a pile of posters that are on a table in the hotel store. The boy climbs around the table on the posters. The dad goes off to look at something in the store. I keep an eye on the boy as he climbs around. He gets down and starts for the door. I go and tell the dad.
Daynotes: Had a rough day. Paul woke me up from a deep sleep at around 11:00. I got angry and couldn’t go back to sleep. Worked with Susan and Bryn on a dream. First we had a very good discussion about our sons and what we were struggling with, with them. I worked on the white horse dream. The suggestion was to allow the horse to lick me. Be receptive to nurturing. I talked with Paul about asking me how I am feeling. I feel I can’t show emotion around him. He tells me to get therapy like that will solve my emotional state and all will be fine again. I am upset about Kevin stopping story time with Rowan and Markus. Two days later, he tells us he is cutting us off completely.