(Friday, July 24, 2020) waxing crescent moon Virgo / tarot six of cups
The first half or more of this dream has no physical experience. Chris and I are staying at a very large hotel, but we are not part of a manifest, three-dimensional realm. We are spirits, yet I sense that his hair is black. He is Chris but he is not Chris. He is my strong, intelligent, healthy mate from my 2015 past life dream I call “Yoga Couple.” In that dream I name myself Madame Renault.
The single-story hotel or conference center may not be “real” either. I notice no striking colors. The immense rooms feel quite bare, devoid of much furniture, empty of any humans. Huge windows overlook the edge of the ocean, or perhaps the muted edge of the universe. I stand on the shore for a long while, sensing the infinite depth, then head back to our room.
It is night-time, but it is not dark. We are resting in a bedroom together. We make quiet love early in the evening like partners who have been together for centuries. We sleep, but I am lucid in my sleep. Anxious. I have a meeting at 9 a.m. Hours and hours of this dream are about having no body, and waiting.
My yoga husband rolls out of our wide, king-size bed in the early morning and enters the bathroom for a shower. This distracts me. I am worried I won’t have enough time to prepare for my 9 o’clock. The dawn has solidified things: I am more human, the rooms are more physical. I am able to enter the constricted black and white bathroom after Chris has finished his morning cleanse. The room is shaped like a small, rectangular box. I feel compressed, and surprised that such a big resort would have such an uncomfortable water room. A tomb.
Then the room shifts, expanding into the large old bathroom in my grandmother Sheehan’s farmhouse that at one time had been my great-grandparents’ bedroom. As I undress for my shower, a small group of people outside the window notice my naked, lean body. I shield myself with a towel I find in the wardrobe-style closet. More and more people appear. The out-of-doors is becoming active and social.